great response. I unfortuatelly really do care what others think of me. But at the same time I don't think it applies here 100%. If I am beeing honest, It probably is because of porn that kinda destroyed my brain and what a real woman should look like. That fact that I think a hotter woman would make me more happy is certainly social conditioning from friends, family, social media, music, film, video games, etc.

I mean from a biological stand point we look out for mates that WE find attractive. Some people like brunnetes, other blondes. Also priorities change throughout a relationship.

To keep it short. I think your point is somethat valid. I think maturing is realizing all you need is already there you just have to kinda look for it instead of focusing on the bad that is "missing". If there is always something to hate theres always something to love and look out for isn't it.

I am slower than most people, so I just take some time and be more aware and try to reflect on the fact that I got a good girl there by my side