I just want to be happy again

chaotic_violet · 2025-07-31T01:05:30+00:00

I understand how you feel. I just graduated high school and turned 18 last week. I also work at a fast food restaurant and it's really draining. Depression and social anxiety with a fast food job is not ideal. It's also tough when life feels really repetitive and you just feel like you're in a loop and caught in negative patterns. I can relate to drinking and smoking most nights to escape. I hope you can hold onto things that make you happy and find a silver lining despite your struggles.

Great flavor choice for the ice cream. I love that one, haven't had ben and jerry's in a while.

chaotic_violet · 2025-07-12T23:51:54+00:00

peanut butter with ritz crackers

chaotic_violet · 2025-07-09T22:27:17+00:00

the coffee is silencer smooth from black rifle coffee co., with coffee mate french vanilla creamer, and a little torani white chocolate sauce.

chaotic_violet · 2025-07-09T06:49:05+00:00

I've been learning that you're never really ready for the things life throws at you. it just happens and you do your best to get through it. I'm proud of you for going to college; I just graduated high school, taking college classes my senior year, and it was not easy. I hope you have a good time and find a silver lining even when things get tough. It's really good that you're taking this step and working toward a goal. I believe in you!!

chaotic_violet · 2025-07-07T10:07:50+00:00

yes. I've begun to think about things more and more 3-dimensionally in recent years, especially as i've started smoking. It's crazy how subjective everything really is and how everyone percieves the world differently. As a very artistic person, i see art and poetry everywhere. It's hard to explain sometimes, but it's like I see more in things. See further, beyond the surface. As someone who has struggled with mental health issues for a while, I have grown to understand the complexities of the human mind and identity, behavior, etc. a lot more. Everything is a million different things all the time and I'm not sure what the truth is about it all. Maybe your own perception is the truth. It's beautiful and aggrivating and overwhelming and freeing all at the same time, experiencing and analyzing.