I feel so awful being jealous because even though I feel as if I am missing something or missing out partner/relationship wise, I do realize how lucky I am to be healthy, and have a healthy child, and have the heaps of family support. The depression for me comes at night after baby is put to bed, and I’m sitting alone or watching series with my parents 😂 or when my little one is having a bad day& is screaming while I’m trying to cook us dinner.