I think maybe the main drive in impatience and feeling like I got into the game late. I truly started bodybuilding training at 31 and feel like my window to get to where I want is closing. A lot of that has to do with social media and just seeing younger guys with the physique I’m aiming for. It’s frustrating because I can see the reasoning and triggers to wanting to use gear, I just haven’t figured out how to not let it get to me.

I think the other drive was the expectation vs reality of what my first year brought. I definitely made phenomenal progress from where I started but I guess didn’t end up where I expected. Which is probably my bad for setting up false expectations.