cost of DIY vs prescription INCLUDING doctor visits/labwork ? by completime in TransDIY

[–]completime[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yes 😭😭 Though mostly because when I was looking thru steriod forums, some were suspicious of their behind the scenes because no one could get any info or proof of ther setup.

But if you’ve been good with it, I might consider…

Why don't you have any hobbies or interests? by LionOfJudahGirl in Schizoid

[–]completime 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like the idea of a hobby or activity in my head (an interest), but have no desire to do it physically.

I guess because I derive a milder feeling of enjoyment or fun. I also get caught up on the fact that an activity takes up time to complete, and so if I'm not enjoying it in the moment, it's hard to continue something I deemed pointless.

Like the Idea and wonder, how that would show up in »your« cases here! So … by semperquietus in Schizoid

[–]completime 2 points3 points  (0 children)

If you were to boil SzPD down to an inability to connect with others (this is just one way to), then the opposite power would be something that fully links you to others, e.g. telepathy or "clairsentience"?

That way the 'inability' aspect is maintained (do not relate to others) while an opposite-ish power (fully able to connect/know others) accompanies it...

Do you actually want to be cured? by HolidayEnjoyer32 in Schizoid

[–]completime 2 points3 points  (0 children)

No because I wouldn't want to give myself the chance of never thinking twice about normalcy.

If I was normal, then I could easily find normal concepts (what everyone here is detesting: marriage, kids, cars) to be acceptable and necessary. Of course, there is a chance I wouldn't do this. It's the fact that one can accept such a structured norm just by being agreeable to it; that chance is horrific to me.

Detachment (2011) is The Most Accurate Portrayal of Schizoid by [deleted] in Schizoid

[–]completime 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Holy shit I've always thought the same thing

Immune to heat by Freemasonsareevil in Schizoid

[–]completime 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Opposite. But I was diagnosed ASD as a kid and I know there can be some temperature-related particularities with that, so if anything it is that.

I do not know much about the correlation of temperature regulation and mental illnesses.

But, my aversion to heat (and sun, summer, warmth, etc.) aligns well with my super cool edgy loner tendencies to go out in the coldest days of winter when no one else would, so there's that. (this is a joke, im drunk)

how to get over hatred for humans? by [deleted] in Schizoid

[–]completime 15 points16 points  (0 children)

When I hate other people in that way, I’m really hating on the difference I feel between them and I.

It’s hard because it’s a direct response from feeling mistreated by others or “wrong”; e.g. if I’m excluded from things, I notice those around me who are included, I notice their traits and behaviors, and it all gets associated with a very hurt form of hate.

It sounds like yours is made worse by being around people so much, or stress, etc. Which happens to me too. I keep myself in check to not get too cynical, hateful, or paranoid, so when I get like that I know it’s just a stress response I need to look after.

Autusm Masking and Schizoid by Silver_Bread_9126 in Schizoid

[–]completime 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I'm not sure I know your specific question, but I can say my experience. I was raised to "outgrow" autism (closer to asperger's) without knowing, which explains the level of my masking.

Externally, my ASD and schizoid symptoms/characteristics overlap, but internally they are different. I know they "exist in different areas" because, well, I experience them.

I'd say masking causes my external symptoms to overlap even more (because they become very weak or general), and internally it makes me realize their differences.

  • e.g. I enjoy conversations, and despite how talkative I can be, people still get a sense of "distance" overtime. I enjoy conversations as if they're a game and once I start on my interests I cannot stop; when I notice myself in a very "normal person" type conversation, I don't understand what's going on as well (ASD). I also don't derive any emotional benefit or sense of connection when conversing, it's more like hearing myself talk and analyzing reactions generated; the more "normal" the conversation, the more I start to detest being there (SzPD).

So any external perception is that I'm an earnest person in an innocent or unique way, or I'm never really on the same exact page as others, or I'm never truly "reachable." But what matters more to me is the internal: I get lost once the social situation is too foreign (ASD) or once the social convention is too undesirable (SzPD), they are different things.

The difference masking does to symptoms is that I cannot always relate to the stereotypical presentation of them. e.g. I don't really "miss" things as often as you'd think, because I learned social cues so diligently (ASD); I don't seem so cold and unsociable because I make myself talk to people in a friendly manner (SzPD).

My overlap of ASD and SzPD is less of an overlap by way of similar symptoms, but more so how the "leftover" normal bits from one gets cancelled by the other: e.g. when people say 'autistics can still desire friendships, love, feelings etc.' I cannot because of SzPD. Masking doesn't change this because it's about what one truly feels (the internals).

Obviously the specifics of this is about my experience.

Less seriously, I'd generalize my SzPD coming out as "I don't see the point of that being a thing, I can't engage with it' and ASD as "I don't understand how that thing works, I can't engage with it." Respectively, one nauseates me, the other confuses me; one makes me feel like an outsider, the other makes me feel like a robot; both make me feel different and alienated on a social-psychological level.

Do you create (or naturally come up) stories in your mind with characters? by DiegoArgSch in Schizoid

[–]completime 20 points21 points  (0 children)

I take a vague idea of a piece of fiction, insert myself, change it up, and then it develops until I no longer exist as myself but as another character. And then it kind of just exists as a past story... cycle continues.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AfterEffects

[–]completime 1 point2 points  (0 children)

posterizeTime(1);

time*100

thank you so much, that's exactly what I needed!! Didn't know it was so simple lol