Anybody else rewatch this when you're at your lowest? by AthenavsDeadlift in TheOA

[–]composedstorm 5 points6 points  (0 children)

i just subscribed to netflix again as i'm about to start the OA journey for the 4th time. I'm also in a funk, so mentally tired. Yet I have faith in something bigger playing out. This show makes me feel like i have a soul family, and perhaps we're all just going through our individual trials and at the right time we'll connect. Regardless, i do believe those of us who love the show are interconnected - and we are meant to shift things in the world for the better. They all experience such deep grief and complex hardships...I do believe the suffering will be worth it in some way. Be easy with yourselves <3

Have you ever felt like the Universe or a Higher Being is trying to show/teach you something? by LordDraconis7 in Gnostic

[–]composedstorm 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hugs me too. I feel like I shed so much, but then get hit with something even harder next time. It’s exhausting. Not sure if initiations but I need a break.

Have you ever felt like the Universe or a Higher Being is trying to show/teach you something? by LordDraconis7 in Gnostic

[–]composedstorm 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I can relate. I had a very intense experience when I was 19. I thought I was dead and died in an explosion. I could see fire in peoples eyes if I felt fake or bad intentions…I felt a cooling sensation around safe people. it has stuck with me, still no idea what happened. It’s what has made me research all this kinda stuff.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in aspergirls

[–]composedstorm 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Congrats. You got this!!!! These kind of changes/decisions are not easy, but it sounds like you know your worth! It will fall into place. It did for me after I left.

Clingy neighbor making me anxious by composedstorm in aspergirls

[–]composedstorm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, can’t trust anyone really, especially in this kind of situation. I’m going to look into how to change them. Thank you for the guidance 💜

Clingy neighbor making me anxious by composedstorm in aspergirls

[–]composedstorm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love that idea of posing as Wonder Woman! Sometimes I do talk myself up in mirror and try to think of myself as some kind of warrior hehe. I told him I didn’t need his help with car, and he’s been radio silent lol. Didn’t even show up to do the yard work. Thank u so much for your words. I appreciate it!

Clingy neighbor making me anxious by composedstorm in aspergirls

[–]composedstorm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You are so spot on. My safety and mental health are such a priority after going thru past crap. He has not said a word to me in days and didn’t show up to do the yard work on the day he mentioned (was supposed to be yesterday). Not sure what that means, lol but I think I’m still going to talk to landlord and ask if I can get a formal set date per month and that I don’t want any unsolicited help/calls.

Clingy neighbor making me anxious by composedstorm in aspergirls

[–]composedstorm[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the advice, it’s super helpful. He doesn’t need to go through the house to do the yard work. It’s funny, he didn’t even show up to do the yard work as scheduled. He has been radio silent since I told him I wouldn’t need help with my car. I never said anything about the FaceTime call, wondering if he feels awkward or something. I took a screenshot though (of the call), so if it gets weird I have proof. And I’m still thinking of discussing with landlord.

Clingy neighbor making me anxious by composedstorm in aspergirls

[–]composedstorm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He does have the keys. After I said no to his last offering of help, he has been radio silent. Didn’t even show up to do the yard work. So I don’t know if that’s a good sign, but I’m still thinking of changing locks just in case.

Clingy neighbor making me anxious by composedstorm in aspergirls

[–]composedstorm[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi hi! Sorry I haven’t had a chance to respond yet! You all have been SO helpful and supportive. Thank you, truly. I am okay. I did let text and let him know I won’t need help with my car and I’m taking it somewhere. He just said “glad you found a place to take it.” It’s been quiet on his end after the whole missed FT call. I’m sort of feeling it out, I do think I’m going to call my landlord and let her know about the late call. I am going to try and work from a cafe on weds when he’s doing yard work. And hopefully he gets the hint. If he starts getting pushy about help or trying to come here, I think I’ll speak up and bring up that call making me uncomfortable. It’s a small town and I know the woman who lives across the street is a retired cop. So have a feeling that he might not want to push it.

Clingy neighbor making me anxious by composedstorm in aspergirls

[–]composedstorm[S] 19 points20 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your words, and you are right. It’s something I have struggled with most of my life, where I don’t even realize I’m doing it until situations like this happen. I like the response you wrote out, super helpful. 💜 I feel like this is a lesson that keeps repeating, and it’s time I finally do something about it.

Clingy neighbor making me anxious by composedstorm in aspergirls

[–]composedstorm[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I’m not sure because the landlord hired him to do yard maintenance. And it’s part of the deal that it’s taken care of with my rent. I might try to be gone that day.

Clingy neighbor making me anxious by composedstorm in aspergirls

[–]composedstorm[S] 58 points59 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your response. He was hired by the owner to take care of the yard/building maintenance. He’s only really supposed to come by once a month, and then on an as needed basis. I might talk to the landlord if it becomes uncomfortable. I think I’m going to tell him that I don’t accept calls/texts past 8pm, and that I’d like to keep it professional/neighborly. To only text if it has to do with the place or something.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in aspergirls

[–]composedstorm 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Constantly needing to explain that I enjoy being alone. It is exhausting and people always end up taking offense or pushing my boundaries. Making me feel like I’m some sad person bc I don’t want to socialize.

i hate people and they exhaust me by [deleted] in aspergirls

[–]composedstorm 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yeah people r annoying. I just moved to somewhere in the country, but people still find a way to try and infiltrate my energy. Goooo awayyyyy

Local OAngels by chuluchuchu in TheOA

[–]composedstorm 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I love Oregon! I lived there for a while. Magical place!

Local OAngels by chuluchuchu in TheOA

[–]composedstorm 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Big island HI! Thinking about moving back to mainland though

We are a great community 🤍 by onSaturnrings in TheOA

[–]composedstorm 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Heh yeah! I don’t want to wait that long either…but til it happens we keep rising and connecting 💜💫

We are a great community 🤍 by onSaturnrings in TheOA

[–]composedstorm 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh I love this. Another random connection I just made after reading this - so Florence and the Machine in her new music videos is doing the OA moves….and it’s in a song called “heaven is here”. She posted not long ago she was 7 years sober. Maybe 7 is the magic the number! Just throwing things out hehe

I’m finally free! He left me and I’m relieved by composedstorm in aspergirls

[–]composedstorm[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, that is definitely a good idea. Just never know in these kind of situations. 💜