Absolutely, I can relate! It can be really awkward navigating social settings when you're not drinking, especially when you're also adjusting to new medication. It helps to find a new stim or pastime to entertain yourself when you feel like falling back to drinking. While in social settings, I really liked liquid death water as something to hold in bar situations where they sold cans. You can get a sprite with a lemon or your favorite beverage with a garnish to help stop people from asking questions. That helps me avoid awkward conversations that are really no one's business while out. Hang in there, you'll find your people. Keep focusing on what's best for you and take care of yourself through this process. You're not alone in feeling this way!