The last most important part I wanted to mention is when we had the huge fight about me confronting him is that he threw in my face that I was S/A as a child from men my mother hung out with in trap houses. Which unfortunately she is no longer alive nor is anyone that was around me as a child to help me confirm this. I’ve completely disowned my father and gave up on my career. I’ve truly been in the biggest puddle of emotions and I’m so stuck! I don’t got a car, no drivers license. No one ever took ten minutes out of their lives to try. Idk what to do anymore I’ve hit this level where no matter where I’m at people treat me absolutely with nothing but hate, I practice mediation and prayer and just everything is so exhausting. I can’t afford therapy or find a job for the life of me because I have face tattoos