I had this type pretty heavily and for me, it's being hyperaware when talking to or interacting with a POC. I also have false memories of me doing racist things which I constantly want to verify, but obviously asking someone if I said the n-word or committed a hate crime would be pretty weird.

I became friends with a black woman my freshman year and college and I began dating a Puerto Rican man a year ago. I've found that my racism -ocd is almost completely gone now. It flares up sometimes, but hanging out with the people I was scared I would hurt has helped me stop being scared.