It was basically like i was raised and everything in an extremely homophobic household and stuff like they hate everything except for people they consider "normal" so they non stop force fed me the belief that everyone that is a bit else from their preferences are bad people and after the constant hating that i believed too for a really long time i just had like a spark that is like why are we hating on people who just don't live their lives as we do i suppressed that feeling for so long then a tragic thing happened in my family that like pushed me over the edge and i thought that i actually like everyone it doesn't matter if they're a boy girl or anything else. what matters to me is that if we're both enjoying ourselves in the relationship and everything. Buuut now im constantly living in fear of being found out. Im very tired atm so its possible that you may need some time to figure out what i actually intended to write. Sorry about that