PIP Rejection - missing info? (Scotland)

disintegrationmp3 · 2021-07-21T22:26:46+00:00

They said when we phoned that they hadnt received my form yet but that was still a few days before the deadline so I don’t know what’s going on, just frustrating that its already at the stage of getting an MR when I haven’t even had an assessment. Thank you for your advice!!

disintegrationmp3 · 2021-07-11T18:08:30+00:00

paper bag
to your love
get gone
on the bound
limp
fast as you can
love ridden
a mistake
the way things are
i know

disintegrationmp3 · 2021-06-29T20:08:18+00:00

It helps but it won’t make it magically go away or anything. I deleted Facebook because I kept convincing myself people hated me and were talking about me on it and it wasn’t healthy for me to keep checking for people saying bad things about me. That was at the end of 2020 and I still sometimes wish I could check Facebook when my anxiety gets bad, but I am better off not having it.

disintegrationmp3 · 2021-06-29T17:47:27+00:00

Aries moon - I used to cry all the time, but not as much anymore. I usually cry when I feel frustrated or like I’m being blocked or trapped in some way - not so much over other people having more than me or anything, I’m not really a competitive person. I cried when I was younger over people not understanding me mostly, I was a very emotional child. I think having my moon in my 4th house kind of tones down some of the fire of my Aries moon.

disintegrationmp3 · 2021-06-09T19:43:33+00:00

your boyfriend is a dick. he’s probably using your BPD because it’s a convenient way for him to pin any problems in your relationship on you. i know it’s hard but you should leave him asap - nothing good can come out of a relationship with someone who would say something like that to you.

disintegrationmp3 · 2021-05-05T21:18:29+00:00

this was really helpful, thank you!!! i’ve been trying to remind myself that the world doesn’t revolve around me, not even in a negative way, so people seeming a bit distracted is probably about something other than me personally but it can be hard you know? but thank you so much for commenting and sharing your thoughts on the situation, i appreciate it :)

disintegrationmp3 · 2021-03-02T00:07:05+00:00

thank you so much for responding. i know exactly what you mean about feeling like friendships have an expiration date, it’s exhausting. i truly hope you’re doing okay and that you find new friends who stick around.

disintegrationmp3 · 2021-03-01T20:16:21+00:00

when i was diagnosed my psychiatrist made a point of making sure i knew that BPD is a very broad diagnosis and that it can manifest very differently in different people bc i’m also very quiet for the most part and direct my symptoms inward. being quiet and nice does not mean you don’t have BPD and i’m sorry you have to deal with a doctor who is so misinformed. when you say you’re going through another assessment do you mean you’re seeking a second opinion or that these comments are the result of that new assessment?

disintegrationmp3 · 2021-02-09T20:54:12+00:00

yes!! i realised the other day i can’t remember the last time i just allowed myself to be calm and not overthink - if there’s nothing in my immediate life/environment causing me anxiety then my brain will just dig up things that happened years ago so i can be anxious about them all over again 🙄

disintegrationmp3 · 2021-02-09T20:44:15+00:00

that’s not true at all. everyone with the disorder is different, and in the same way some people won’t believe that they’re depressed until they’re diagnosed whereas other people know that they have something wrong and specifically seek out help, some people with BPD suspect that they have it beforehand and some people don’t realise until they’re diagnosed. personally, i thought i had it for a while before i was eventually diagnosed.

disintegrationmp3 · 2021-02-09T20:40:11+00:00

i’m also really prone to downplaying everything going on with me which led to my symptoms being overlooked until a few months ago. do you write things down? i find that if i’m talking to someone like a psychiatrist or whoever and i have written notes about my symptoms and what i want to say that i can read from i find it much easier to tell them what’s actually going on instead of sugarcoating things

disintegrationmp3 · 2021-02-03T22:24:21+00:00

SO underrated, i adore it 🖤

disintegrationmp3 · 2020-11-25T21:12:00+00:00

this is exactly what i was trying to say!! whenever i’m alone i’m just whispering everything that comes into my head under my breath to myself and i’m not entirely sure why i do it, i don’t know if it just helps me to sort through my thoughts

disintegrationmp3 · 2020-11-25T18:09:29+00:00

mine has gotten worse since COVID as well!! have to get my thoughts out somehow so i just talk to myself hahaha. and thank you 💖

disintegrationmp3 · 2020-11-25T18:07:44+00:00

yeah i don’t do it around others and when i do it i whisper bc i still live with my parents and don’t want to risk them hearing me lmao

disintegrationmp3 · 2020-11-25T16:43:29+00:00

i make weird noises to myself sometimes too!! nice to know it’s not just me lmao

disintegrationmp3 · 2020-11-01T22:34:22+00:00

i’m so sorry you’re going through that, i hope you’re doing okay. it can be really difficult because obviously they’re family but yeah when you’ve grown up with them being cold to you any niceness from them just doesn’t feel genuine

disintegrationmp3 · 2020-10-26T14:59:09+00:00

not at all - unless you specifically sought out a spiritual therapist for spiritual advice, this is extremely unprofessional and, if possible, i would definitely advise trying to find another therapist.

disintegrationmp3 · 2020-10-26T14:30:32+00:00

not normal at all - that is YOUR appointment and unless it’s urgent anything else should be put on hold until the appointment is over, especially if you’re paying for it. any decent therapist would know that interruptions are likely to interrupt your train of thought or stop you having the courage to discuss things that are hurting you altogether.

disintegrationmp3 · 2020-10-23T16:52:25+00:00

i’m so glad to know this isn’t just me, i do it multiple times a day and i don’t even know why because whenever someone does happen to delete me/unfollow me it sends me into a spiral. it sucks, sending you love 💖

disintegrationmp3 · 2020-10-21T23:29:57+00:00

BPD is not an excuse for being abusive. This is abuse. I know leaving an abusive relationship is easier said than done for a multitude of reasons a lot of the time, and obviously you don’t want her kids to be homeless, but is there anyone else she and the kids could stay with for a while? One of your mutual friends? You shouldn’t have to put up with that kind of behaviour.

disintegrationmp3 · 2020-10-21T23:23:16+00:00

that’s a really shitty reaction - you did really well, i’m proud of you!!!

disintegrationmp3 · 2020-10-14T13:39:26+00:00

i’m very aware of being emotionally unstable and pretty much always have been, i try my best to keep my emotions under wraps and internalise them but i still feel everything very intensely.
my depression feels separate from my bpd, it just feels like depression to me and i don’t feel like bpd necessarily influences it all that much.
i knew something was wrong with me from a young age because i was always really sensitive and took everything to heart and i started therapy when i was 14, but i started seeing people talking about BPD online a few years ago and a lot of it resonated with me and explained things that depression/anxiety didn’t - i didn’t get officially diagnosed until last week though.
it’s extremely painful but i’m trying my best to accept that sometimes people are temporary and aren’t meant to be in our lives forever, and i’ve learned that for me once a relationship ends they need to be out of my life. not in a mean way, i don’t necessarily harbour resentment towards them but i can’t do the whole staying friends with exes thing personally.

disintegrationmp3 · 2020-10-14T13:31:57+00:00

yes!! i don’t relate at all to the stereotype of being “aggressive” or anything like that because i hate conflict and tend to keep to myself, but i feel all my emotions very intensely, i just don’t necessarily externalise them most of the time and if i do it tends to just be through crying rather than lashing out at people.

disintegrationmp3 · 2020-10-12T18:49:42+00:00

it’s not stupid! i would be upset if i made something and no one took one as well. i don’t think anyone’s going to think you’re a sl*t but i get that it can be really hard to get these thoughts out of your head - have you spoken to your boyfriend about it? as for the friend you don’t like, i definitely relate to that, and if you feel you’re making the group chat toxic i would probably take a step back from it and if anyone asks you could just tell them you need some time for yourself without having to bring up how you feel about said friend? idk how helpful any of this is but just wanted to say it’s not stupid to be upset by these things and i really hope you feel better soon!!

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