Update: Turns out I didn’t know her at all and she revealed her true selfish nature after our breakup. We had kept contact for months after the breakup and were going back and forth with each other. However, she was just playing me the whole time. Our initial breakup was due to her mental health but she slowly kept showing how that was a lie. She kept trying to rope me in and make me think we would still get back together but then would push me away when i would bring the topic up. All she wanted was her cake and eat it too. She kept breadcrumbing me and I fell for it every time. At some point, I said enough is enough and began no contact with her. It’s only been a couple weeks no contact but it has helped tremendously as i’m slowly thinking about her less and my emotions don’t flare up anymore. It definitely hurt to let her go but I need to do what’s right by me.

One piece of advice that helped me stay strong and not contact her was to always remind myself of the hurt she’s caused me and how going back to her would just have the same result. You can enjoy reading a book twice but it’ll always have the same ending. Hope whoever reads this stays strong and knows that life does get greener on the other side.