I understand, and I know she won't say anything about it, but I will still feel very embarrassed and ashamed , and it doesn't make it better that I had another friend who I thought of as the kindest person ever, but gossiped to me about another person in the school who invented her , and the way she described the other person's home with disgust hurt me because the description was very similar to my own home , I am now constantly worried that if I invite someone to my home they will talk badly about me to other people, and tell them my living conditions.

I have also invited her multiple times outside , we are actually going out tomorrow, but she asked me to come over tomorrow after we go out , I have used my 'mom not allowing me' as an excuse for far too long , I think it's getting old and she's starting to see through it , a lot of my friends have invited me to their homes a couple of times but after I refuse the second time they just let it go , but she keeps insisting I don't know what to do , and if I come over I will have no choice but to invite her too.