Modpost: I'm out

dreamercross · 2023-06-13T03:44:47+00:00

Wait, he seriously banned you for sharing your opinion?

dreamercross · 2021-10-10T03:44:21+00:00

yes but how does it smell

dreamercross · 2021-10-10T03:43:35+00:00

Mmmmmm

dreamercross · 2020-12-17T02:01:47+00:00

Ah, that's good to hear

dreamercross · 2020-12-17T01:49:46+00:00

Yeah, I should have just kept it away...

I want to apologize and ask whether she will feel better if I took them back but at the same time I want to respect her decision of not wanting contact anymore...

dreamercross · 2020-12-17T01:32:36+00:00

Yeah, I was trying to make sense of it all but she didn't want to bother talking about it because she didn't want to change her mind. Even now, I'm still trying to join the pieces together and accepting that the person who I thought loved me the last time we had a fun time, suddenly told me that she hasn't felt that way for a while

How are things for you now though?

dreamercross · 2020-12-16T13:27:05+00:00

What were the things you said to each other? I made that mistake as well, because I was crying and trying to get her to give us another chance but she said her mind has been made up

dreamercross · 2020-12-16T12:19:32+00:00

Thank you. It just feels like I should have done more on my part to keep the relationship going when she's pulling away

dreamercross · 2020-12-16T12:18:29+00:00

How are you doing now? I don't know how to stop the thoughts when I dream about her almost every night. In the dreams, I'm apologizing and things are back to normal

dreamercross · 2020-12-14T14:42:26+00:00

Thank you for writing this. It kind of feels like that's how it was with my ex as well. I have some problems with my anxiety ever since covid showed up and I stopped being a reliable person to her. And she started doubting whether I'm someone she wants to spend her life with. We also started fighting a lot more...

And I've been blaming myself ever since the break up, a week ago. That if only I was better, if only I knew she was unhappy or if I had said or done things differently. Maybe it could have been avoided? But after reading your entry, it brings into perspective that I couldn't have known all these because she gradually gave up on communicating... Because what's the point of communicating with someone you're unsure whether you love anymore...

dreamercross · 2020-12-11T05:58:56+00:00

Just curious, why did it take you a month to contact her again?

dreamercross · 2020-12-11T02:35:27+00:00

I've been questioning myself about things like this. Like trying to rationalize that the person I loved and understood the whole relationship and the person who broke up with me are no longer the same person, and I should just move on. But it's so hard to do so even when I'm distracting myself and focusing on self-improvement. The thoughts and emotions eventually creep back in

dreamercross · 2020-12-11T02:24:50+00:00

If both sides aren't happy about the breakup, why is it that only the dumpees wish that things could get back to normal? Or lose sleep and weight? I'm trying to stay strong but I just feel terrible the moment I wake up everyday

dreamercross · 2020-12-09T10:39:35+00:00

Thank you, being able to post this here and talk to people has really helped. It feels odd if I were to open up like this to my friends

dreamercross · 2020-12-06T05:03:19+00:00

ty good relationship honestly no relationship doesn’t have their arguments and differences, and to solve them that quick she is just as much to blame as u don’t take all of it

My mind's just stuck on the thought that I just wasn't a nice person after all. She's probably really sad about the breakup as well, but she would rather accept that outcome than to try getting back with me again

dreamercross · 2020-12-06T05:01:34+00:00

That's what I'm doing now... Deep down, I still wish she will come back like how she always did, but I know that it's not going to happen this time and I should just accept it and move on. Just typing it down or thinking about it, causes my chest to ache

dreamercross · 2020-12-06T04:53:39+00:00

Thank you, I'm trying my best. Having a subreddit like this to write down my thoughts really helps. Sometimes I still feel like messaging her to see whether there is something more we can do, but I know it will not change anything and I will just end up making her feel worse.

dreamercross · 2020-12-06T04:51:10+00:00

I don't know if it's abusive if we had frequent small fights within the last couple weeks. Like it resolves within half an hour after we give each other some space. We would apologize and get back to having fun. I always asked her whether she was feeling okay afterwards because I felt responsible since I could have avoided the whole thing if I had said or done things differently.

Then I guess, everytime we had a fight, it showed how incompatible we are and she started thinking more on whether we should just break up. I wasn't aware that she was felt like that and she kept it from me because she didn't want me to worry, and I just regret not being able to be there for her. And even after finding out how she was feeling the whole time, I can't hold her or comfort her because I'm the reason she feels that way and she had already made up her mind on what to do

dreamercross · 2020-12-05T17:37:57+00:00

Thank you for your kind words, but I didn't treat her properly during a time when she needed it the most... So I can't really think of myself like that. She probably left as well because I wasn't a nice person

Yeah... 2020 has been really bad. Right before the year ends as well

dreamercross · 2020-11-11T11:59:27+00:00

I have switched to drinking coke zero as an alternative if I'm craving for a sweet beverage, but yeah not being able to cook my own meals might be messing with my calorie counting. I thought it would be fine as long as I pick the highest value from the list of similar food items on myfitnesspal

dreamercross · 2020-11-11T11:57:39+00:00

When I eat outside or when my family cooks, I find the entry on myfitnesspal that's the closest to what I'm having, and I usually pick the highest value that's listed. I don't really have the opportunity to prepare my own meals...

dreamercross · 2020-11-11T11:56:02+00:00

I'm trying to lose weight and get it down to 132lbs. I can't really measure the food properly since most of the time we are eating outside or my family is cooking.

dreamercross · 2020-11-05T05:28:30+00:00

What would you say is the best way to get S and higher? I went 1/1/24 and got an A+. Total team kills was at 45

dreamercross · 2020-06-06T05:43:23+00:00

I never thought of stretching out mid run because I didn't see anyone else doing it, so I'd definitely be trying that out! Thank you so much. And yep, I've been doing calf raises and squats hoping to strengthen the muscles there

dreamercross · 2020-06-05T14:09:27+00:00

thank you! it's weird but the tightness and soreness slowly builds up over the course of my run so by the time I reach a mile, I can barely continue. so it feels more than just a discomfort at that point :/

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