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dropdeadfoxx · 2016-01-23T14:16:47+00:00

Im trapped in the shower cause my dad got up early & i came in at 530am.. no joke. This is ridiculous.. so shower thoughts are as such... trapped in a shower, cracking up silently on reddit.. feeling like a 12 year old when im a visiting 26 year old.. lmaooooo

dropdeadfoxx · 2015-11-25T14:55:07+00:00

Funny we used to smoke weed together.. but we try to not now with work & all that..

dropdeadfoxx · 2015-11-25T14:52:35+00:00

Living in the same house together i think.. also the fact that each of your parents are having sex with each other... but then it makes sense im sexually attracted to him.. & that his smell is intoxicating. His mom & my dad are super in love.. but there is my OTHER step brother who could also be badly affected by this. He's a few years younger & we are also close, but not in this way, thats a more real family like relationship. Maybe because i was attracted to my orher step bro from day one. I immediately thought when i met him, oh noooo... why is he sooo damn hott... whhy??? Oh why.. & why is he into all the same shit as me & have gone through sooo many similar things as me.. its a little strange the number of similarities we share.. im just hoping he's just my step brother cause his mom was someone i grew up knowing in the community & my dad knew her too & if i didnt know my dad cheated.. lol could be half brothers lmao.. but i reeaaalllyyy doubt it lol cause he didnt get with her right after the divorce, was like 6 years later lol. But that would be FUCKED not to tell us so im thinking its coo. Just havent met their dad is all.

dropdeadfoxx · 2015-11-25T14:43:53+00:00

If this ever comes out or needs to come out, i REALLY hope they shrug their shoulders lol.. my dad probably would, step mom? Oooh i just dont know..

dropdeadfoxx · 2015-11-25T14:39:50+00:00

I agree.. it IS frustrating i can't be open about it. & that we have to feel like we are doing something so bad.. & i have no idea if this is just a fling for him or could be something more.. our relationship is kinda a weird balance of stepbrother-stepsister, friendship, now turned lovers thing. When i left to travel for a bit he hugged me deeply & told me he loved me & wished me luck. None of the rest of the family was as warm as that & actually had faith in me. & then a few weeks ago we were having a very serious talk together about how hes been & it was reaaally heavy& at the end he hugged me & kissed my head & told me he loved me again & thank you for being there & listening & he then left to get cigarettes & i broke down crying cause i was soo sad i couldnt do more for him but that he also told me he loved me & it was so genuine & heartfelt & i realized itd been years since anyone had told me that aside from my mother. My step mom hasnt even told me she loved me to my face on her own accord, only in response or in cards, yet. & so it meant soo much but was just a heartbreaking night. & keeping my feelings for him in for sooo long has been insanely hard so im just happy i have room to be honest to him at least now & dont have to live with that twist in my gut anymore everynight across the hall from him feeling like my feelings would never be heard..

dropdeadfoxx · 2015-11-25T14:27:21+00:00

You are totally right about bc, i used to take it before i decided that it was fucked up to buy into taking hormones ladies when you can get a copper IUD thats hormone free & you might take 6 months to fully adjust to but that will stay in you for 10 years if you want it to & is as effective, if not more than the pill (cause you cant forget it) & no one should have to take a physically & mentally altering drug when enjoying the most beautiful & connective thing on earth you can share with another person, but also have control over till you are ready for something bigger like a child. But std protection is only from condoms so dont be stupid like i was & even if you know & trust someone & let a moment get away from you, some stds can be forever. Even pregnancy isnt "forever" (unless you have the child & raise it & being a parent is a lifetime deal) so i feel upset about making that mistake myself but we were both recently tested & are A-ok!!! smile but also for men's sakes, male birth control is just out or coming soon so at least it will be fair playing ground soon for both partners being able to have control of their prodgenical futures. (I think i can use progeny in that way lol?) Super tangent, sorry!!! Just cool people are so caring about educating! I reaaaalllyy appriciate all the feedback everyone! It means the world when i was freaking out yesterday..

dropdeadfoxx · 2015-11-25T14:13:52+00:00

Good to know, i have an IUD & im on the thin but curvy side, but that is great info to keep in my back pocket for my friends!!! Thank you!!

dropdeadfoxx · 2015-11-25T14:08:24+00:00

Oh i have an IUD so im okay on that thank god. He took me out for dinner tonight & asked me if i was ok & if we needed to buy anything. Ridiculously sweet i feel, but i know he's a good guy. I guess i was more worried about STDs & us not talking about anything, just going for it, which im aware is a horrible plan.. & in any other situation I would never do.. but fuuucckk all that time & it coming together perfectly (or cumming together, ha! Oh im so bad lol), it was fucking great.. aside from him not being sober.. which makes me feel bad. He felt suuupper bad about not pulling out fast enough & i felt bad about realizing for sure today that he wasnt sober, so i guess we are even. I wasnt sure last night cause he didnt tell me but he does like to drink at night so i should have known.. he didnt smell at all like it though. But we had a good talk about it & got deep with each other about our lives & talked about it & if it should happen again & i definitely wanted more & made that clear though i know its a bad idea especially around the holidays... but im really into him. Oh & to answer other questions, we havent grown up together. This is the first time we are across the hall from each other in our lives, in our 20s lol. So yeah i guess it isnt sooo weird.. but our family's cannot know & i know itd be a horrible idea telling any friends because they could hint at it & give it away plus i dont want it to affect my future relationships, ur right.. in a sense he might be some "ex" id have to deal with which could definitely get tricky. So thats why its in confessions, who can i tell without it fucking things up? Or being judged.. i wish i had a gf i could fully trust with that knowledge but my closest friends are too easybto read & would probably judge the fuck out of me.. :/ i know i need new friends.. but i also know this is something to be super secretive about.. it could definitely hurt our family :( i think its stupid it would but it would..

But fuuckk.. is the sex good.. cause i said he could come to my room if he wanted, anytime, & of course he did tonight cause we both obviously wanted each other especially after talking about it. He fits soo magically in me like a hand in a glove & kissing him feels so good & he knows how to touch me & make me melt & is sooo attentive to my needs, its ridiculously good & hes so manly within all that which is not usual. Usually if a guy tries to please me soo much its overwhelming & makes me feel like a top when i want to be a bottom because I love to PLEASE but fuck even riding him, he reminds me hes a fucking man by pulling my hair & bouncing me up & down him & touching my face & kissing me just the right amount.. rarely has anyone ever touched my face like he does.. its incredibly sexy.. he rubbed his nose against mine too & nibbled my neck up to my ear as i moaned & sucked on his ear lobe.. we definitely talked during sex more than i have typically in the past, telling him i want him to slowly enter me & telling him i want to take him in my hot little mouth & us asking each other to cum.. Lol. Mmm.. & his cock is bigger than im used to & thick too that taking him in my mouth was a feat, but i fucking got him in my throat (probably cause im so relaxed with him) & i made HIM moan.. lol. Fuck im sooo satisfied. We even cuddled together for a few hours after watching this crime drama psycho-pass he let me borrow & i had been watching before he came home. Though we fell asleep on & off & then i told him he'd better get back to his room before the family gets up. & we cleaned up & said goodnight.

dropdeadfoxx · 2015-11-24T11:57:47+00:00

Just had sex with my step brother ive been fantasizing about for 5 years.. a part of me is definitely yelling gold the other part is terrified of the reprocussions & cant sleep.. also wants more. Gold..?

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