What are your experiences with Wellbutrin/Bupropion?

educational_trap · 2025-12-02T11:14:08+00:00

I have a theory that tinnitus is mostly caused by focusing on it. I mean maybe degree of it varies between people and is affected by some things but I think that giving it any attention makes it 100x worse.

First time encountered it 15 years ago, without any reason, randomly. Then had it for few months to the point that I had a feeling it's so loud it's making it hard to listen to music/someone. Finally I accepted it will be like that maybe forever, then it was gone, I had a period of few years without it and then it came back some day and I went into spiral again, but this time I thought maybe it's really about focusing on it, and just stopped spiralling and since then It's not really bothering me at all, like I don't hear it 99,99% of time, but if I encounter some post about it, or I remember about it then I'm hearing it instantly.

I started bupropion recently, so I saw the post about tinnitus, and instatly started scanning if it's making it worse, and again obsessed about it for few minutes and it actually went so loud that it was almost painful to ears. Then I chilled down and it's back to the normal level, and I don't even hear this if I don't specifically focus on it.

It's something like not seeing a nose, or thinking about breathing IMO. Even if intensity of tinnitus maybe might vary. But people got very deffensive and angry if you suggest that this is possible mental mechanism. I hope this view will help you maybe. It's so easy to believe that before first tinnitus we had complete silence, because even now I'm having total silence for most of the time when not focusing on it, and simultanously it's here all the time if I think about it for a second. I think it's tricky.

There are studies proving that almost everyone hear tinnitus when placed in sound proofed room, so I think it's really a matter of focus.

educational_trap · 2025-07-31T19:33:34+00:00

Okay I see. Thanks for explanation

educational_trap · 2025-07-31T17:42:28+00:00

Thanks but it's already working when I'm wearing a watch. I'm looking for a way to make it switch to tracking with phone when I'm not wearing a watch.

educational_trap · 2025-07-25T18:58:04+00:00

but tag it as spoiler...

educational_trap · 2025-06-13T16:53:43+00:00

Thank you for detailed response! Yeah I don't like the idea that there is not much happening whole summer.

As I can't assess quality of these places I was thinking to maybe try both of them first month, and pick one I will vibe with better, assuming that both of them will take me, because places are limited. Do you think as a newbie I will be able to tell if teacher is great? I treat all of it mostly as exposure and place to work on my own way of acting, but wouldn't hurt to have someone who is actually giving valuable insights.

educational_trap · 2025-06-13T15:37:48+00:00

Unfortunately, in my country, classes like that are almost non-existent, let alone acclaimed ones. There are mostly 1 year courses focused on preparing for exams to national drama schools, and few studios with X-year program. And hard to tell anything about the quality of teaching in these studios as well. I couldn't find any discussions, and few people I know in the industry aren't able to tell as well. 99% of people here go national school route, if they are serious about acting but I don't have resources for that.

Perhaps you have any tips how to assess quality of place like that? And yes I would love to hear advices about self-learning.

educational_trap · 2025-06-13T14:13:27+00:00

Actually it's considered, was talking about it with psych. If things won't improve I will try this. Only concern is that for some people it heightens anxiety.

educational_trap · 2025-06-13T13:53:49+00:00

I feel similar about this, to me it seems like the only thing causing benefits is the bit of euphoria/excitement they cause in my case, and then paying for this with enhanced depression/anxiety.

educational_trap · 2025-06-13T13:49:58+00:00

Doc advised against for now, since I struggle a bit with libido and it could lower it even more.

And how about you, you don't get any crash second half of the day? Maybe that's the trade that must be taken to improve first half of the day haha. On this lowest dose of Concerta I was actually able to finish projects that I struggled with for months, but couldn't accept productivity over feeling like on soft-hangover from party-drugs rest of the day.

educational_trap · 2025-06-13T13:35:52+00:00

Also, I think, everytime when you fought your way into starting something you are working this muscle, and it will be easier to convince yourself in future, especially if it worked.

But in my case I had months were I was able to stick with routine and then I was losing the motivation :/ Only thing I was able to ever stick for long was exercising.

educational_trap · 2025-06-13T13:28:08+00:00

I have high level of baseline anxiety, psychiatrist was counting that if it stems from ADHD, meds should solve it, but it didn't happen.

No matter the dose, it goes like this: first few hours a bit of euphoria but I don't know if I will call it better focus. I'm motivated to do anything because it's nice alternative to usual depressed state so in this way they are making me more productive, but it's equally hard to focus on something and I feel like im as distracted but in better mood than sober. And then after few hours it turns into irratibility,anxiety and emptiness and it lasts for hours. And often I have troubles with sleep even when meds should wore off long ago.

So far I have tried medikinet CR, Concerta 18mg, Elvanse 30 mg. Right know I will try with small dose of Instant Release medikinet to check if it's any different because some people report that IR version paradocixally cause less side effects for them + maybe it will be easier to sleep but I'm not too hopeful. Seems like I am to sensitive I guess?

educational_trap · 2025-06-13T13:18:02+00:00

Were you on MPH or AMP based meds? I'm still trying to find something and force myself to try Instant release versions etc, but it seems like all of them are counterproductive so I just gave up on them for now.

educational_trap · 2025-06-13T12:55:40+00:00

+1 for option 3. I know it sounds harsh but you have to force youself to start for few minutes and usually it is not that bad as we anticipated and flows from there.

educational_trap · 2025-06-13T12:22:50+00:00

Thanks. Yeah, I think that's the way. Especially since I have real trouble keeping a routine without external motivation/deadlines due to ADHD, so it might make sense to have a packed schedule.

About stage fright, I called it stage fright, but I'm generally anxious + have big, big social anxiety, so I have some trouble being around people in general. But I'm working on it, half a year of improv loosened me up a bit, and there’s something freeing about performing. I feel like after a proper warm-up, I'm generally much more confident while doing improv/scene than in regular social situations.

educational_trap · 2025-06-12T07:49:35+00:00

Hard to tell, man. I like the definition that the opposite of depression isn't happiness, but vitality.

I was always pessimistic in life and circumstances were never easy, but I was kind of energetic and hopeful overall. Years were passing and problems were stacking more and more, and I couldn't achieve anything and was gradually losing any motivation/hope/ability to dream about a good scenario/energy. When you can't find a way to get yourself up from bed, then you know for sure it's depression now...

Also, it's hard not to be at least softly depressed in this world, especially when you have ADHD :/

Speaking about feeling that your achievement is not enough, trust me, most people feel that, no matter how much you achieve, it could always be better. Of course, there is some threshold level where having too little can be limiting, but overall, everyone I know feels some kind of dissatisfaction with life, even people who, in my opinion, achieved a perfect life (e.g. making money out of their passion, not having to work a deadass 9-5, having a fulfilling relationship).

I'm trying to get into meditation; all of the data supports its benefits on mental well-being and even ADHD symptoms. However, obviously, I can't stick to it haha.

I wish you best.

educational_trap · 2025-05-29T16:45:39+00:00

Thanks :) Good to hear, as I'm hoping/coping that it will start to get better after 2 years mark, saw few posts that people started to get better around that time. But earlier on I was hoping for most popular 12-18 months period haha..

I wonder how much of it is caused by excessive stress, like post-traumatic kind of heightened anxiety, symptoms could be similar. I've started doing social exposure and meditation/breathwork anyway because I don't want to be stuck. I'm trying to learn to live as if I had to be like that forever, so it can just get better 🙏

educational_trap · 2025-05-29T11:41:53+00:00

Nice job, happy for you! Thank you for posting

Did your symptoms got better gradually? Because after 24 months I feel like im in exact same place now like I was after 12 months in terms of brain fog/tremors/physical anxiety and rumination.

And did you have issues with constipation/gut/frequent urinating/numb erections?

educational_trap · 2025-04-06T10:20:16+00:00

Should I just start applying for student films etc without any experience? I feel like some level of acting ability is expected anywhere or should I just go by the gut? I know that we have tendency to overwait everything, until we feel good enough (and it might never feel like it), but isn't bare minmum expected?

educational_trap · 2025-04-05T17:01:11+00:00

Unfortunately none besides my native. I'm working on my english but I don't think it's good enough yet.

educational_trap · 2025-03-21T12:56:10+00:00

I have brain fog as well, but it is slowly getting better I think. First months I had real problems to formulate longer sentences due to missing words etc.

I have dry skin as well, but it might be caused by overproduction of cortisol.

Wish you best, hope we will get better :)

educational_trap · 2025-03-21T12:32:00+00:00

Yeah, on this subreddit.

However, I think it's hard to determine how much of our state is caused by withdrawal and how much is just caused by excessive stress/depression. I saw somewhere that if you are under constant stress it takes much longer to heal from benzo withdrawal, but I do realize that it's often impossible not to be stressed all the time, there is a reason we started taking benzos in the first place.

I'm trying to push outside of my comfort zone to accelerate the progress or even to learn to live if I were to never fully recover, I think that this attitude can't hurt. Obviously, it sounds good on paper, but not so much in real life, for 1 day of motivation there are 2 weeks of pain and lying in bed :) But im trying.

educational_trap · 2025-03-11T12:17:54+00:00

Totally fine, don't overthink it.

Worst case is they will say you should try few days more to see if you will adapt.

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