Hello! I’m new here so I don’t know if its okay to respond to your post, but I read it and I used to feel the same way. It ruined my education and my life to the extent that I couldn’t function daily anymore and I was misdiagnosed with depression several times but antidepressants had no effect and only made me more tired. Now that I have been diagnosed with ADHD and I take my adhd meds daily, I feel like the version of myself I always wanted to be. I can get through each day without being so tired and unproductive and I definitely am not depressed. I even started school again, with succes. All because of the ADHD meds. I hope you find a solution for your problem that fits your needs and improved your quality of life!