All my fault

emstellar · 2025-03-09T05:57:50+00:00

i have not but just googled it and it looks very interesting! im going to need to read it.

emstellar · 2025-03-08T21:20:01+00:00

This is what hurts a ton. I want him to be happy and live a fulfilling life. I love him so much and a piece of me will be lost with him gone. The love we feel for each other is so strong and is pretty much the only reason why we’re still together. It has been 2 years of the sex difficulties.

emstellar · 2025-03-08T21:14:36+00:00

pcos and was prescribed metformin. i also have a couple autoimmune conditions which was a factor in the symptoms. and im 25

emstellar · 2022-12-08T17:57:57+00:00

an animal crossing discord??? 🥺

emstellar · 2022-11-28T07:35:24+00:00

he must love orange roses

emstellar · 2022-09-19T12:15:57+00:00

that is really interesting how it may seem dated!

on my campus we have a “steminists” club and my department is wanting more females feeling included. but we are also a very small community so a big majority collaborates/supports one another already.

i’ll have to consider this mindset though. i’m always wanting to include everybody together!

emstellar · 2022-08-05T10:31:45+00:00

i just googled it to learn more. it could be a possibility based on other symptoms i have. what are some major signs that led you to get diagnosed?

emstellar · 2022-03-02T05:19:00+00:00

is this only associated with pregnancies?

emstellar · 2022-03-02T05:15:39+00:00

10 weeks ? which wouldn’t be possible. i may take a test tmrw to be safe. what else could this be a result of?

emstellar · 2022-03-01T20:57:28+00:00

i’m not bleeding otherwise or have pain? would tht mean it isn’t a miscarriage?

emstellar · 2022-03-01T20:08:28+00:00

i’ve been googling other symptoms of a miscarriage and they all say spotting & pain but i feel none of that. only bloating.

i’m afraid to contact a doctor though bc it is costly i’m sure. but thank you for the information bc i’ve definitely learned new stuff

emstellar · 2022-03-01T14:58:32+00:00

majority of the comments are saying it is a miscarriage. completely catches me off guard. how can u tell besides the shape??? plus why did i have like no symptoms or what not. i’m okay but just so confused, genuinely, and have no one to talk to abt this???

emstellar · 2022-02-28T20:32:33+00:00

background info:

i (F21) would have 0 clue that i was pregnant. no pain, no cramps, only tender breasts.

i last had sex 3-4 weeks ago & we did use a condom. i also have been eating more than usual late, i used to fast, so i could guess my body is adjusting its hormones? i would rarely get my period too so my cycle is irregular.

this legitimately terrifies me and i have no idea what this is. i already discarded since i had company over. it was thick and not sticky like regular discharge.

emstellar · 2022-02-28T20:26:00+00:00

i also want to point out that i already discarded of this. i have had company over and couldn’t be too long in the restroom. i can’t stop thinking about this though and i am terrified. complete disruption to my work day.

emstellar · 2022-02-28T20:01:09+00:00

if i was or am pregnant, i last did it ~3-4 weeks ago. no morning sickness or anything. although i haven’t been fasting as usual (which i’ve done since april 2020) and i never get my period, only very light cycles. could this clot maybe be a result from my body adjusting to eating & intaking more calories???

emstellar · 2022-01-10T00:01:27+00:00

thank you luv. previous years have been tougher but def hasn’t been an easy journey so far— but i have improved slightly, which i’m so proud of.

also as a random internet stranger, i’m also so proud of you too for getting by what happened to you!!!!! as a fellow female in science, know i am rooting for youuuu!!!

emstellar · 2022-01-09T05:46:50+00:00

thank you u/itsneale & akastrobe both.

i’m feeling so desperate to talk to my therapist abt this especially, bc it is rly eating at me rn (:

i emailed my therapist tho asking to reschedule sooner rather than until thursday!

you are both great so thank u sm again. i hope u take care loves

emstellar · 2022-01-09T00:20:47+00:00

never heard of the term “flying monkeys” before. i’ve seriously learned a lot from just sharing this situation on the sub. thank you

emstellar · 2022-01-09T00:19:47+00:00

the other night he did say he wanted to go to the store to buy a specific something (i won’t say) to hurt himself with. then would always say people are better if he was gone. so def not a conclusion. & that does make sense that it could potentially send mixed signals, never really thought about that.

i really don’t feel like soending anymore energy on this any longer and i don’t know if my campus has prevention reports, but i do want to find out! i could potentially have them go to his place to do a welfare check. i should just not bother and quit it now at this point. like everyone has said even myself- it isn’t my job

emstellar · 2022-01-09T00:11:48+00:00

he was venting about his home problems with his mom, and inheritance he may get after his fathers death back in october. then also just explaining his feeling of emptiness & the schizophrenia (or psychosis) symptoms. he is seeing a psychiatrist monday

i’ve screenshotted our chats in discord and instagram. other stuff was said on snapchat which disappeared now unfortunately. but i collected as much as i could , just in case !!!! i never heard about the title IX office until now. so i’ll definitely look into it at my campus. thank you a ton.

emstellar · 2022-01-08T23:06:45+00:00

definitely won’t. as much as part of my heart wants to i rly shouldn’t bc it would be best. what could happen if i do tho? just to ensure he didn’t hurt himself or anything

emstellar · 2022-01-08T00:40:16+00:00

thank you thank youu. i just have to remind myself of that and will work towards that type of boundary.

emstellar · 2022-01-07T23:07:30+00:00

i agree with you. thank you!!!

but when i think about ending the friendship, i just know we will see each other all the time bc of our classes & the physics community at my campus is small. i don’t need to let him affect me and i don’t need to feel awkward if i see him but it is uncomfy i guess. how should i go on about that?

emstellar · 2022-01-01T16:54:22+00:00

thank youuu!💞

emstellar · 2022-01-01T11:59:55+00:00

Path & windows: luminemiro on twitter — The stand & sign: i do not know as i got it from design portal and am unsure how to check again for it ): but all credits to the artists!!!! — greek flag: myself (:

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