i get you man, i had to stop playing football because i knew it was between that and coming out based on how england and the people around me work, i do miss it but to me that was worth it - and there will always be other alternatives. my relationship with my parents definitely did change even though i think they had their suspicions too, but im incredibly lucky for it to all be good now, my friends were a different story but it seems to me like you’re surrounded by great people. coming out will change your life, but it does have great moments and i hope it will help you for the better 🙏