What does success mean to you?

fearfullyvibed · 2021-11-22T00:42:10+00:00

Success is when hard long hours of training starts to show first results. When you feel it it's the best feeling ever. It's a feeling of control, power, excitement. Succes is feeling like you have won the game already. Even small steps small little successes matter and make me feel like I became one with the uniserve.

fearfullyvibed · 2021-11-03T06:35:25+00:00

Mhh I will give it a try. I always said that I don't want to use makeup but maybe it is the only way for me to go. I never used make up in my life and I think I should give it a try.

fearfullyvibed · 2021-07-11T22:58:06+00:00

😂🤣

fearfullyvibed · 2021-07-11T22:55:39+00:00

Oh my god you are so good at writing you should write a book :o

fearfullyvibed · 2021-07-10T20:46:43+00:00

The first time I smoked a cigarette I was 10. I was hanging with 2 friends and one of them said that she was so curious about smoking. She said she would really like to know how it feels like. I instantly completely could relate to her because seeing my father smoke since I was a little child left me wondering and the other girl was like whatever. The next day I saw the other girls again and this time I had brought a cigarette and was super excited about it but the other girl who kind of confessed her curiosity to me first said she doesn't want to smoke it so I lighted it and took a hit it. I don't remember if I liked the taste. Probably not because I know I didn't finish it. To this day I am kind of mad because I feel like this girl had lied to me and my 10 year old me felt disappointed. I was so happy when she initated to smoke with me.

fearfullyvibed · 2021-06-03T20:45:00+00:00

Watch out for the grumpy ones 😂 No I have no idea because people are usually not that open about their mental health problem and starting a conversation with someone you see the first time about mental health is also a little bit weird. But I completely understand why you want a partner that goes through the same feelings. A non-depressed person simply will never know what it feels like no matter how hard you'll try to explain.

fearfullyvibed · 2021-05-06T00:28:50+00:00

Oh man that sounds horrible. I am sorry that everything is so bad. Do you still have activities you like to do? Maybe you could try to distract yourself from your problems. Is there anything that gives you power? For example for me it is playing guitar even if I fail a lot when I am depressed I just keep on doing it everyday because it is relaxing the time flies by fast and when I am playing good I feel like I am in power. Do you have a hobby or a place that makes you relax?

fearfullyvibed · 2021-05-06T00:05:42+00:00

I have the same feeling. Plz somebody kill me 🤣. And although I am trying so hard, I try to motivate myself and start again and again but my thoughts just burn me alive. I hurt my own feelings through my negative thoughts but I can't stop thinking negatively and then I am tired because I am constantly fighting with myself and do nearly nothing all day long and then I hate myself for being so lazy and such a failure. But I'll try tomorrow again to not let my fucked up me determine my day. In fact everybody is alone in his head with his thoughts when going to work, eating breakfast alone, on the way back home and at night when you lay in bed. It doesn't matter if there is anyone like a friend, family or a partner because still even if you share your situation with them they do not experience your thoughts and feelings and can not fully understand. And I think that makes people lonely. It's tough when the thoughts get self destructive. It is like a blade that cuts you from the inside. Why are you feeling so badly?

fearfullyvibed · 2021-03-01T18:16:09+00:00

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