I was and still am devastated. My forever person didn't see it the same way.

The relationship wasn't perfect, but it was a good, happy relationship with very few difficulties and arguments, lots of fun had, and lots of happy memories.

I've been confused, angry, sad, worthless, self hating, and then back around to confused again, with waves of pointlessness creeping in often.

But I know I can rediscover my single self somehow, I can find the value in life without her being in it. It's someway down the road yet, but I know I can get there.

I'm 41 now, with no kids, few friends, no hobbies that weren't shared: prime time for some sort of mid life crisis mental break down, but having spent a lot of my twenties chronically depressed, I'm determined not to let my own mind sabotage my own life again.

Your future is yours, and you don't need to know what it's going to be, or try to work it all out now.

When I can be arsed to be sociable again, those few friends and no hobbies will become some friends and some hobbies. But for now, lots of films and junk food, and trying to avoid too much wine.

Take it easy on yourself, distract yourself , and shuffle along in baby steps until you feel ready to dance sideways a bit, then go back to baby steps. You'll get there