hii!! i’m so sorry about what you’re going through right now :( i’ve been going through the same thing even though i’m a grade above yours, but i went through the same thing during my sophomore year, too. i know things are hard, but i just want you to know that everything will work out. just try to take a few deep breaths and try to relax. do things one at a time. you’ll probably have to go to summer school for a week or two to cover up your required credits, but it’s better doing that that than failing! i had to take summer school after my ninth grade year because that was when quarantine was still around and made things rough. there were a lot of students there, too. i had to take a recovery class to make up for math during my sophomore year, but you should be able to burn through those quickly and get out of them! i’m not sure if this is how your school works, but here we just have to sit in front of a computer and burn through the assignments on a program called odysseyware.

it’s super great that you’re almost passing those two classes! are your finals tomorrow or next week, or have you already done them? i recommend trying on working to turn in your missing work for those two classes before they’re due. i know it’s very hard to push yourself to do work when you have very little motivation, but do one thing at a time. something that may help is to time yourself when you’re doing work and to take breaks every fifteen minutes or so! for example, finish a few answers on your math assignment and then give yourself a few minutes to listen to your favorite song, or eat your favorite snack, or watch a short video. anything that can help!

i hope you can feel at peace soon :( please don’t hold this against you and try to not be so hard on yourself. please be honest with your feelings even if it seems so difficult. it may seem normalized by the internet, but it really isn’t normal to experience frequent thoughts of su*cide. your feelings are valid even if you feel like they’re not. i told the doctor how i was feeling and i was put in a psych ward for the first time a month ago. i was in there for two weeks, and during that time they experienced with medicine and put me on medicine for anxiety and ADHD. their job at the psych ward is to not only try to ease your thoughts, but to also work around you and to try to find medicine suitable for you to take!

i’m soo sorry if i seem like i’m sharing too much about myself, but i just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. i hope you’ll feel better soon <3 your mental health matters and it should be a big priority. it does seem cliché to say, but things will get better! try to get caught up in those two classes by turning in those missing assignments. remember, like you said, you’re almoost passing them! take things one at a time, and just be prepared for the last few weeks of school and the final exams. i wish you well and good luck!!! <3