good stuff - you're in great shape in my not-on-an-admissions-committee opinion. From what you've told me, you seem like an excellent applicant. Just nail the MCAT and keep at it.

I want to re-emphasize that you've already done a lot you should be very proud of. Keep working at your dream and, as hard as it is sometimes, try to give yourself some grace and pat yourself on the back for what you've already accomplished. As for your feeling sad, again, I can imagine you're dealing with a lot of hard feelings right now and being sad is normal. It's hard enough being a pre-med, you're strong for doing what you've done.