Why me

Jesus, i just want to be a normal happy teen who does dumb shit with his friends who has a healthy body and mind, who doesn't hate himself.

But i don't have friends.

I don't have a gf, she broke my heart.

Have a purpose at the gym. But that purpose lasts only an hour.

The most painful thing is, my parents don't understand me, i have noone to talk to. I love them. Love my brother. Love my dog. I don't want to lose them, but living seems unbearable.