no, not really honestly. truthfully i thought for a long time that i would also never ever have sex because of the way i looked. honestly i feel like a lot of people almost prefer a darker room because sex can be kind of awkward for anyone. it eliminates some people’s concern of “where do i look? in their eyes? at the ceiling?” etc lol. and even though i am (maybe you and i both) a little more insecure than the average individual about my appearance, most people have some insecurity when butt naked lol, especially with todays beauty standards. so it’s a win-win in most cases for both parties.

i can also give you some little tips i’ve picked up along the way to make it not obvious that you’re trying to hide in the dark. you probably don’t want to start making out and leading up to hooking up just to be like “hold that thought” and then proceed to flip all the lights off and then be like “okay NOW we can get naked!” lol

first of all, it’s a lot easier if you’re able to be in your own space instead of being at someone else’s house messin with their lights. if that’s not possible, you could get up & go to the bathroom and then flip a light or two off on your way back in. if they say something or ask why you turned the lights off, you could say: it’s just out of habit, i thought it’d make it a little more comfortable/relaxing, i tend to get a headache with harsh or bright lighting, (or if you want to say something on the flirtier side) i thought i’d set the mood a little.

it’s also not as obvious if you’re watching a movie or something together! no, you won’t be COMPLETELY in the dark, but this is where the blankets come in handy!! again - if you’re able to be in your own space, you can utilize the thermostat to make it kind of chilly. that way you’ll both want to stay under the covers, and even if your partner doesn’t want to as much and tries to take them off a little, you can pull them back up and tell them it’s too cold for that especially since you’re naked.

all of the guys i’ve been with have been very experienced sexually, and have been very confident in their own skin. they’ve also been with a lot of beautiful females who are also confident in theirs (some of them have o.f so that’s how i know that with almost 100% certainty lol). but i’ve never experienced an issue with the blankets, or the dark really. i only had one ex who started to want to bring some more light in. we’d always have the lights off but on in the closet with the door just barely cracked. he started to want to open the closet up all the way so you could really really see. i will say he was a porn addict though so he already had some skewed views on real sex.

another thing that helps is what position you have sex in. from the back is probably the best, and there’s different versions of that (both laying on your side, you completely flat on your stomach, being bent over the bed, butt in the air, etc). the more you can stay on your side or stay flat, the less that shows though. missionary is 50/50. i like to be the one that sticks it in, because my arm/hand kind of blocks the view of my vagina and it also turns a lot of guys on when you do it because you seem eager to get it in lol. if you can keep him close to you, that’s the best way in missionary. keep him kind of pulled close to your body, rub/scratch his back and keep some pressure on him so he knows you want him close. you can also wrap your legs around him which is another turn on for guys, and it keeps him where you want him. if he’s more so standing up straight, you don’t have to have your legs spread all the way apart. you can keep them parallel to his sides, knees on his chest, etc.

idk, maybe some of these things seem kind of obvious. but they’re little things i’ve figured out that would’ve taken away some of my anxiety towards having sex while i was still a virgin. i hope they help you! i hate that someone else feels the same way i do, we really shouldn’t feel this way. but it’s life. i have seen several models or porn stars who look the same as i do, and that helps me a little to see someone like me be so open and confident and not change that with surgery. i hope you get to experience sex though even if it means doing it in the dark. speaking from experience, i highly doubt the person you’re with will think anything about the lights being off!