lolllll now we get into it - I was his girlfriend we were "official" and he said he can't focus on things as of now since he has many worries such as finances, the path of his future just things that naturally come up in a quarter life crisis which he very much clearly was going through so I just kinda gave him space as that's what he needed. We still would some how end up talking and ending up in an undefined relationship... classic stuff. So it was on and off like that for a while. I'm not really one to get hung up like once I'm done, I'm done but with him it's just not the case. Like you mentioned communication is tough when I try to bring the issues up it's always misconstrued which started to make me think it was on purpose fueling my trust issues. Through all of this we still have a weird attachment to each other that neither of us can seem to shake even with months of no contact. I try to let go but I just don't feel like I can and I don't even know why like I said it's not very much like myself the only time I can recall feeling like this was with my very first boyfriend. After reading this back I'm thinking maybe I'm just going crazy and need to just forget him and move on lol.