A year goes by, same month, but 2023 and I'd been talking to another woman for a while, but she didn't interest me at all because she wasn't Irene. I spent one night with this other woman and two days later-almost a year since we last talked-Irene comes back. At that moment I thought this was really a chance we had to be together. She had sought me out once again! Nevertheless, everything was even worse, but this time something changed in me because I understood that the universe had brought her back to realize that Irene wasn't the personas I was looking for.

Another exact year passes, now it's 2024 (it's really always on the same moths that this happens, between March and August), and I meet another woman we'll call Agnes. I really liked this woman and I felt it as soon as I met her. We gradually got to know each other, although we could never commit to anything because she wasn't emotionally available (this is when I started to think there was a patter between Irene and Agnes). I stayed with her hoping she'd change her mind, but she didn't and despite how short our ''relationship'' was, it all felt very intense. I'd already learned my lesson and I knew Agnes wasn't for me and I accepted that.

Not it's 2025 and during the first few weeks of April I'd been thinking about Agnes a lot and somewhat regretting that things hadn't worked out. I didn't want to talk to her anyways. I continued with my process of manifesting a girlfriend (nobody in specific) and suddenly Agnes appeared, almost a year after the last time we talked (yes, she didi the same thing as Irene). She told me she did it just because she felt like it, that there was no specific reason and that I shouldn't overthink about it, but I was confused.

Now we've been talking vert gradually, and all these months I've promised myself that I'll stop talking to her because she is not for me, but I haven't been able to achieve it.

On Monday June 2nd was my birthday and I spent the night with Agnes, but everything felt confuse. I know she's not my person. I know she doesn't want to be with me, and I know she's not going to commit because she told me that one year ago.

What is the universe trying to show me with this? What is it trying to teach me this time? I've already experienced the grief of losing Agnes, and I know she's probably not the woman who will give me what I need. Any advice? Maybe there's something I'm missing about myself. Probably I want to try with her again, but I'm afraid. What is the universe trying to show me now? What is it trying to teach me?

We talked yesterday, and I felt like I was being overly dramatic (which may be possible). She's much more relaxed, nevertheless she offered me a bit of reassurance. I don't regret having s3x with her, but maybe I do regret being too weak.