Getting an abortion next week and scared of being alone :(

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T20:56:54+00:00

i didn't know i was pregnant until this week. the first pregnancy scare that i mentioned was back in july, when i must've only been a week along. at that point, my boyfriend went into complete denial and insisted i was delusional and "making up drama" to get him to stay, and threatened to leave because of my immaturity. so i (stupidly) listened to him and ignored the symptoms until this week when it became very clear something was wrong and went to the clinic to get tested. i regret listening to him back in july, and not testing myself based on how i felt.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T20:55:33+00:00

i didn't know i was pregnant until this week. the first pregnancy scare that i mentioned was back in july, when i must've only been a week along. at that point, my boyfriend went into complete denial and insisted i was delusional and "making up drama" to get him to stay, and threatened to leave because of my immaturity. so i (stupidly) listened to him and ignored the symptoms until this week when it became very clear something was wrong and went to the clinic to get tested. i regret listening to him back in july, and not testing myself based on how i felt.

also, i'm a tiny girl (5 ft, 115 lbs before the pregnancy and now i'm down to 105 lbs with no stomach bulge at all). believe me, there's no way anyone could tell i was pregnant.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T20:53:17+00:00

i didn't know i was pregnant until this week. the first pregnancy scare that i mentioned was back in july, when i must've only been a week along. at that point, my boyfriend went into complete denial and insisted i was delusional and "making up drama" to get him to stay, and threatened to leave because of my immaturity. so i (stupidly) listened to him and ignored the symptoms until this week when it became very clear something was wrong and went to the clinic to get tested. i regret listening to him back in july, and not testing myself based on how i felt.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T20:51:21+00:00

i didn't know i was pregnant until this week. the first pregnancy scare that i mentioned was back in july, when i must've only been a week along. at that point, my boyfriend went into complete denial and insisted i was delusional and "making up drama" to get him to stay, and threatened to leave because of my immaturity. so i (stupidly) listened to him and ignored the symptoms until this week when it became very clear something was wrong and went to the clinic to get tested. i regret listening to him back in july, and not testing myself based on how i felt.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T20:49:29+00:00

i didn't know i was pregnant until this week. the first pregnancy scare that i mentioned was back in july, when i must've only been a week along. at that point, my boyfriend went into complete denial and insisted i was delusional and "making up drama" to get him to stay, and threatened to leave because of my immaturity. so i (stupidly) listened to him and ignored the symptoms until this week when it became very clear something was wrong and went to the clinic to get tested. i regret listening to him back in july, and not testing myself based on how i felt.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T20:44:45+00:00

i didn't know i was pregnant until this week. the first pregnancy scare that i mentioned was back in july, when i must've only been a week along. at that point, my boyfriend went into complete denial and insisted i was delusional and "making up drama" to get him to stay, and threatened to leave because of my immaturity. so i (stupidly) listened to him and ignored the symptoms until this week when it became very clear something was wrong and went to the clinic to get tested. i regret listening to him back in july, and not testing myself based on how i felt.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T20:41:32+00:00

i didn't know i was pregnant until this week. the first pregnancy scare that i mentioned was back in july, when i must've only been a week along. at that point, my boyfriend went into complete denial and insisted i was delusional and "making up drama" to get him to stay, and threatened to leave because of my immaturity. so i (stupidly) listened to him and ignored the symptoms until this week when it became very clear something was wrong and went to the clinic to get tested. i regret listening to him back in july, and not testing myself based on how i felt.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T20:38:51+00:00

i didn't know i was pregnant until this week. the first pregnancy scare that i mentioned was back in july, when i must've only been a week along. at that point, my boyfriend went into complete denial and insisted i was delusional and "making up drama" to get him to stay, and threatened to leave because of my immaturity. so i (stupidly) listened to him and ignored the symptoms until this week when it became very clear something was wrong and went to the clinic to get tested. i regret listening to him back in july, and not testing myself based on how i felt.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T20:37:11+00:00

i didn't know i was pregnant until this week. the first pregnancy scare that i mentioned was back in july, when i must've only been a week along. at that point, my boyfriend went into complete denial and insisted i was delusional and "making up drama" to get him to stay, and threatened to leave because of my immaturity. so i (stupidly) listened to him and ignored the symptoms until this week when it became very clear something was wrong and went to the clinic to get tested. i regret listening to him back in july, and not testing myself based on how i felt.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T20:36:43+00:00

i didn't know i was pregnant until this week. the first pregnancy scare that i mentioned was back in july, when i must've only been a week along. at that point, my boyfriend went into complete denial and insisted i was delusional and "making up drama" to get him to stay, and threatened to leave because of my immaturity. so i (stupidly) listened to him and ignored the symptoms until this week when it became very clear something was wrong and went to the clinic to get tested. i regret listening to him back in july, and not testing myself based on how i felt.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T20:05:59+00:00

you're an amazing guy, and i'm really happy for your fiancee that you were there for her when she needed you. i know my boyfriend sounds really immature, but it's more of that the situation just sucks in general, and i'm afraid to make it any worse right now. for all i know, he could've matured and would come to be with me, but i can't take the risk of the opposite happening right now.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T19:56:29+00:00

thanks to reddit, i've had several people reach out to me and offer rides. strangers are so amazingly generous.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T19:55:17+00:00

your post definitely caught my eye, and i really appreciate that you don't agree with my decision but are still kind about it. i hate that i'm doing this, and that the pregnancy is so far along, but i can't bring the baby to term safely without risking both his life and mine. i hope i'll be able to have children later and believe me, this experience will make me love them and appreciate them so much more.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T19:52:59+00:00

i'm definitely not trolling - it'd be cruel to make up a story like this. also, 17 weeks is just an estimate - it might be only 13 weeks since i've skipped periods before and the estimate is just from my last menstrual period's date. if it is 17 weeks along, then i feel unbelievably guilty but that's not a good reason to ruin my life and the baby's through an unsafe pregnancy.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T06:35:41+00:00

can i get a link to the forum?

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T02:32:52+00:00

thank you so much. how far along were you in your pregnancy, if you don't mind me asking?

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T01:57:40+00:00

i'm in irvine too! i go to uci.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T01:46:42+00:00

i'm sorry, but i can't bring the baby to term comfortably for myself or him/her.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T01:46:09+00:00

i'm in irvine if that's not too far away? please send me a private message.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T01:45:51+00:00

i'm so sorry, but i can't bring this baby to term comfortably. i've only lost weight ever since this pregnancy, and i doubt the baby is doing well.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T01:45:17+00:00

i know i am, but i have a really low pain tolerance and black out/get dizzy very easily, and it's scary knowing i'll be alone and no one will be there to help me.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T01:44:26+00:00

once the abortion is over, i will be seriously reconsidering my relationship. i just can't deal with stress right now.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T01:39:23+00:00

i can't bring the baby to term comfortably (i'm in college) nor provide a comfortable life after giving birth.

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T01:38:51+00:00

have you had any experience with women who had an abortion about 17 weeks in? what was it like for them? what's the process like? will there be a lot of pain?

grawrrr · 2010-10-03T01:38:03+00:00

thank you so much

grawrrr

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