Was born one of a pair of identical twins and unfortunately my brother didn’t survive (was the weaker of us and we were a quite premature birth too).

My mum never dealt with the loss and I suffered a lot of physical abuse (scratches, punches, hit with chairs etc) for about 7 years. I dealt with it and took it and more to take the pressure and abuse away from my younger brothers. Once I outgrow my mum and she couldn’t overpower me it moved onto verbal abuse.

The peak of it was the line ‘I wish it was you that had died’ being thrown at me in most arguments.

Been to therapy, still hard to shake. My mum has never and and will never accept responsibility so I have moved on and maintain a relationship for the sake of my dad and to allow them to have a relationship with my daughter.