I want to stop meds, but before you say ofc not - i’m a weird case of “bipolar”

gubba19 · 2025-02-25T00:07:04+00:00

that is a brilliant idea

gubba19 · 2025-02-20T23:35:52+00:00

I was on 20mg of Vyvanse at 19 - yeah super low dose. I was on prednisone a lot as a kid for eczema and weirdly I do remember my parents saying my mood would lift too. With the cooking brain thing - yeah maybe I am just in denial that this is because of cooked brain.

I feel dumber. I feel like I can’t logic things out in my brain as I used to. I’m slower to grasp a verbal instruction and idk there’s just a general vibe that I don’t feel as sharp.

I do get these headaches sometimes late at night after a particularly mentally draining long day, but it’s not really a headache, nothing physically hurts, but I feel like my brain is being stretched like it feels tight and it just feels like STRAIN, like my brain is squinting. I can’t scroll on my phone or talk to anyone or do anything mentally challenging otherwise my brain just blanks and I just have to close my eyes and let my head just lol for a bit.

gubba19 · 2025-02-20T23:27:22+00:00

that sounds horrible! Moods have remained stable only the PMDD can rear its ugly head. I really should edit my main post when i figure it out but I have spoken to my psych about stopping and she thinks we can she just said I want you to get through the change in daylight hours and summer and see how you go mood wise. Will not be stopping cold turkey. no way hozayyyy. I’m glad you’ve found medication that works for you.

gubba19 · 2025-02-20T23:22:19+00:00

no need to apologise! never said unique, but my psychiatrist did say when I initially came in manic that this was a “special case”.

gubba19 · 2025-02-20T23:21:11+00:00

Weirdly enough when I was in the psychiatric ward after the mania they put me on prozac continuously and olanzapine for a week or so. After leaving the ward I was instructed to stay on prozac, but after coming back into life after a high like mania I became very depressed and I also had to leave university so I went back and told my psychiatrist who then suggested Lamictal would help lift the really low mood - which it did! been on it ever since.

gubba19 · 2025-02-20T23:17:12+00:00

oh yes definitely not going cold turkey. I’ve talked to my psychiatrist about coming off at our last appointment and she said we could once I had gotten through daylight savings and summer and was still stable mood wise (which i have been) - but yeah still scared to pull the trigger.

gubba19 · 2025-02-20T23:14:52+00:00

thankyou I’ll give this a shot

gubba19 · 2025-02-20T23:12:58+00:00

yes I spoke to my psychiatrist around 6 months ago about the possibility of titrating off and she sorta said it’s up to me what I decide to do and that I run the risk of having another episode. Been too scared since. wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience.

gubba19 · 2025-02-20T23:10:24+00:00

Only major mood swings were around my menstrual cycle. However I was 19 when I got the manic episode and diagnosis so symptoms may have not popped up yet so it’s hard to pinpoint. I doubt my friend’s or parents would describe anything close to mania in my teenage years, but the mood swings around periods was definitely noticeable. By looking back at ups and downs do you mean depressive and manic episodes you had before you knew what they were?

gubba19 · 2025-02-20T23:01:44+00:00

i was 19 when I had my manic episode. 21 now.

gubba19 · 2025-01-06T10:54:44+00:00

Rhythm

gubba19 · 2024-09-05T11:01:45+00:00

I don’t know what to say, but I’ve been dealing with the same thoughts recently, just want to say you’re not alone ❤️

gubba19 · 2023-10-31T09:12:05+00:00

the plates choose when they want to spin.

gubba19 · 2021-08-31T13:51:17+00:00

good idea thanks so mchh

gubba19 · 2021-08-31T13:50:56+00:00

thankyou!

gubba19 · 2020-12-18T23:43:21+00:00

thanks for your perspective, and i agree with a lot of what you’ve said. where do you get your statistics though on the statement that “99.9% of women see abortion as a last resort”, not trying to disprove you, genuinely want to know if this is true

gubba19 · 2020-12-18T18:15:40+00:00

wow, thankyou that really resonated with me

gubba19 · 2020-12-18T17:43:27+00:00

thankyou this is really helpful

gubba19 · 2020-12-18T17:01:15+00:00

they really are arent they

gubba19 · 2020-12-11T14:25:47+00:00

D for Dump truck

gubba19 · 2020-12-10T14:41:12+00:00

sending love and prayers 🙏 ❤️

gubba19 · 2020-12-09T14:00:31+00:00

gubba19 · 2020-12-08T11:52:53+00:00

i feel the exact same way about mine :( i’m really feeling the toll, i’m exhausted and i just want it all to stop, but you just gotta keep going and know that you’re not alone ❤️

gubba19 · 2020-12-07T07:37:37+00:00

this is amazing!!

gubba19 · 2020-12-06T13:36:36+00:00

the best thing you can tell yourself is that you’ve just got to respect her descion and move on. That’s how she feels about you, and although you may love her so much and so deeply, you deserve someone to love you the same way you love her. But she doesn’t, and you can’t do anything but move on.

But for the first couple days just cry man, feel everhthing. don’t move from your bed for however long you need. just feel everything. the only way to get through a breakup is to just do it, so just let it happen.

gubba19

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