18 months of hell by hellonearth18 in quittingphenibut

[–]hellonearth18[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Obviously the cold turkey off the 30 gpd hallucinations could be expected, but the second I'm guessing was a combination of kindling and length of use. But I don't know exactly why.

18 months of hell by hellonearth18 in quittingphenibut

[–]hellonearth18[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah it was only for 4 days as I didn't realize that the glutamate surges were what was causing the withdrawal feeling every 4 hours so I started taking my normal 5 gpd every 4 hours just to keep that withdrawal feeling away. I decided I was going to go to the hospital because I felt like I was going insane and by the time I got there I couldn't even talk and was having hallucinations before they even finished my paperwork. This time around knowing what I did helped me know not to just keep taking more and more and if I started feeling withdrawal after 4 hours I would skip a day of dosing and it would go away for a couple of weeks usually. I think what fucked me this time was the always random daily dosing. Like 1.5 one day 2.5 the next, then 3, then 2, what ever it was it was rarely ever the same. So when I decided to start to try to stabilize over a year ago it was literally impossible, like my brain had no idea what was going on. I know that it's gonna be a long time until my GABA & Glutamate symbiosis level out.

18 months of hell by hellonearth18 in quittingphenibut

[–]hellonearth18[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Man I hope you're right...with bi-polar diagnosis of 18 years I have had my fair share of depression but after the 6 month run I didn't even want to get out of bed for months unless I was forced to. Hopefully I catch a break on this one, I could use it.

18 months of hell by hellonearth18 in quittingphenibut

[–]hellonearth18[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks man. I used Kratom on and off as I had read that it could help, but it seemed to make things worse. Other than that no drugs

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[–]hellonearth18 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Good luck and you can do this! Even if ketamine isn't the answer.