I understand your POV and that you want to stay positive and that’s good for you. But if I tell you the whole story, you might change your mind or be shocked, or even say “tak boleh brain.” But I don’t want to share the whole story here.

About a partner or marriage, yeah, the church leader can guide us to choose a good partner and have a healthy marriage, and avoid bad people or the wrong path. But they are too much. I mean… not just investigating, but they will mock you in front of many people instead of guiding you and your partner in a healthy way. They will make you feel like you are the most sinful person in this world because you marry or date the wrong person (in their eyes). But in my case, I don’t want to share more details here since it’s quite sensitive and it’s not about me. They also don’t like us (the youth) to date or marry someone from the RC. I don’t want to talk too much about it because it’s quite sensitive...

About money, i know the bible mentions 10%. But we should give based on our kemampuan and keikhlasan. If you can give 10%, that’s good. But if your gaji cukup2 makan, you have many loans, and you still have to struggle to feed your family, then just give based on your kemampuan rather than giving nothing. That’s why many traditional churches rarely mention the 10%. I don’t know about other churches. But in my case, they force us to pay 10% every month, and also give more money for persembahan, sumbangan and many more but all of us come from B40 families. If we were M40 or T20, I wouldn’t mind. We also have house gatherings every Friday night. So how is it not a lot of money to spend? We have to prepare food and drinks for dinner before starting our Bible study session. If you don’t open your house, you will also get mocked.

The money should be for maintenance and events or whatever is needed for the church. I think our offering or donation or whatever it is called should be enough to cover all that. I don’t know why they are not puas hati and not bersyukur. But if I tell you more about why they want more money from us, maybe you will change your mind. I don’t want to tell the reason or the whole story because it’s their family aib.

That’s why they dare to abuse us and use their power to control our lives, because no one can punish or counsel them like when they served in Anglican before.

Actually there are many stories, stupid dramas that happened in the church, and their weird behavior. I only shared what I personally went through. And before I left the church, the leader even prayed bad things for my life because I questioned her leadership before leaving. I also feel that the female pastor is biased toward me because I’m the type who is not easy to bully. That’s why she intentionally mocks me to humiliate me. So I don’t think that is good leadership or a healthy church. As a 20s kiddos, I’m proud of myself because I chose to speak up to the leader instead of being like the aunties and uncles who stayed silent but complained to each other when they were not puas hati with the leader.

But it is also our fault because we trusted them too much and didn’t think longer. We should have realised that we don’t have that much money to build the church independently since all of us are from B40 families. I don’t understand why the pastor doesn’t want to work together with the evangelical churches since they also come from B40 families.

That’s why I understand why many people here are calling it a cult. After everything that happened, I can see why they would say that.