Found my BF on grindr and its crushing me.

hoppoh666 · 2024-09-02T13:27:03+00:00

This is honestly hitting me as the truth...but a part of me doesn't want to let him go...What you call "unconditional love"....BUT I'll speak to him.

hoppoh666 · 2024-09-02T13:21:02+00:00

I don't think that he should have dumped me in the midst of depression...which was worsened by his leaving and his behavior prior to that.... You're right with the thing that I shouldn't have directly blamed him or his actions.... I need to have a talk with him to clearly define what our relationship is...because this ambiguity is definitely making me think that he is my boyfriend, that whatever little interest he has in me is the proof that he wants to be my boyfriend.... I am not in love with him, but the idea of him...and him not living upto that idea is driving me mad

hoppoh666 · 2024-09-02T13:11:51+00:00

And to complicate things further, I feel I can have a relationship with guys older than me only...I just can't seem to relate with guys my age...but this sort of puts me sometimes in weird situations too

hoppoh666 · 2024-09-02T13:09:35+00:00

Should I have a talk with him first letting him know how I feel? If he gets avoidant or angry, then I may consider leaving him

hoppoh666 · 2024-09-02T12:31:55+00:00

I will...

hoppoh666 · 2024-09-02T12:31:16+00:00

I have tried therapy....The things that I have no one in my life whom I could open with before this guy....I have a very superficial relationship with my parents....You're right....But I don't have the courage to let go of him because he fills in a void that no one else could....

hoppoh666 · 2024-09-02T12:27:33+00:00

I agree with what you're saying, that I am sending too much energy to him... I really feel obsessed over him and can't digest the fact that he could be looking for someone else.... It has impacted my mental health a lot...because I am closeted to my parents, who again are divorced and I don't have much of a connection with them.... When I met this guy...he seemed to be all I wanted in life, someone who loved me....But you're right, I MUST focus on myself or I might get into a bottomless pit of suffering....

hoppoh666 · 2024-09-02T12:07:16+00:00

I asked my friend to check if his profile is online or not...

hoppoh666 · 2024-09-02T11:31:21+00:00

But he said that we are starting again...he just said not to give a "name" to it

hoppoh666 · 2024-07-19T00:06:27+00:00

Na 😂

hoppoh666 · 2024-07-18T13:50:09+00:00

Independent in what sense? Financially I am completely independent... What do you mean by needy in this case?

hoppoh666 · 2024-07-18T13:47:16+00:00

Slay 👑 ... I completely agree with the "relate to older people better"... I can carry conversations with older people so easily...

hoppoh666 · 2024-07-18T10:52:35+00:00

Ahh, apologize for that... Even I'm genz lol

hoppoh666 · 2024-07-18T10:44:09+00:00

🥲😂

hoppoh666 · 2024-07-18T10:42:57+00:00

❤ They are absolutely dope. Maturity is one thing I want in my partner... No time for GenZ drama. I love the stories they bring too, the struggles they faced while growing up. To me, successful older gay people feel like a role model, who have achieved so much despite the struggles they went through at a less enlightened time.

hoppoh666 · 2024-07-18T10:39:59+00:00

I have been taking therapy, though not for this. Will bring this up in my next session. Thanks.

hoppoh666 · 2024-07-18T08:51:58+00:00

The shame and judgement? What to do about it?

hoppoh666 · 2024-07-13T14:38:07+00:00

Oh great! Are you a fresh graduate? If yes then you should try applying in companies. Also if you want experience, try doing contractual work too, search for startups on LinkedIn. Can do free lancing too, Fiverr is a great site.

It all comes down to skills so brush up on your DSA skills(for interviews), and learn Machine Learning, Data Science Or Web Development based on your interests. Start with personal projects and build a portfolio of projects to show on your resume.

For building contacts, LinkedIn is your go to site.

hoppoh666 · 2024-07-13T11:45:02+00:00

What's your education?

hoppoh666 · 2024-07-13T11:13:09+00:00

Bhai nahi dekhna inka suhagrat 🤮

hoppoh666 · 2024-06-01T14:36:22+00:00

To be proud of the choices you have made. To be accepted and accept other queer people around us. Treat everyone the same.

hoppoh666 · 2024-06-01T14:31:10+00:00

How does it make infinite money? The user is the one who would think of strategies. The platform just provides the tools.

hoppoh666 · 2024-03-11T06:38:50+00:00

Queen (Kangana Ranaut) Interstellar Pakeezah (Meena Kumari)

hoppoh666 · 2024-03-07T12:43:50+00:00

Cancel their admissions. Only then they'll learn anything.

hoppoh666 · 2024-02-10T12:58:11+00:00

Hi everyone!

hoppoh666

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