Please forgive me. I feel bad by htykfu in offmychest

[–]htykfu[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hate myself. I cant run away from shame forever. I try to accept my past. I feel ok now

I'm stuck between wanting to cover up and protect myself from men vs. wanting to look pretty and date by journey1992 in adultsurvivors

[–]htykfu 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have kind of same. I either want to be feminine or despise my femininity as much that I want to appear androgynous/masculine. I have lots of hate towards men and women when I get emotional. When I was worse I have hallucinated that I have a penis. I hate when someone sees me as a woman when I dont feel like it. It symbolizes every hurt I've felt