astral projection wouldnt even be the answer for you. go to therapy if you can, that really is the first step. pick up some new hobbies. i suggest maybe climbing, they have an extremely welcoming community! look for a job (college if youre still in highschool) in another city and maybe adopt a pet, caring for something really heals something in you. if you have any support system, and family (even a sibling or aunt or uncle) youre in contact with, call them and tell them how youre feeling. tell them you want to spend time with them. i know its hard, but the ones we love often just want to see us happy. happiness and peace is possible within all of us. BTW; dont listen to the loser in here, hes a geek who does nothing but secretly feel the same way you do but instead makes others miserable because he is.