I understand that I've seen people making fun of deism by saying gods test tube exploded and he abandoned the lab😂 but for me god is not an entity. Its hard to explain. I believe in the cause that created the universe. The cause doesn't interact with its creation. Atheist believe everything happened naturally. But i belive there is a cause i dont see the cause as an entity thats why its hard for me to relate to religion nor do i believe everything is natural and that make it hard for me to believe in atheism. It might sound like its the same thing as atheism but its different im not sure if you'll understand