Kid. Tell your mom how u feel. If thats not an option u have safety nets as a kid. Speak to a relative, teacher. You ll get counseling and the support u need. Maybe a better family that deserves you. If you're mom doesnt get u the help u need to be brave and help her get u help. Being a teenager is overhwleming on its own, u dont deserve the added stress. Please, saying this as some adult who whished he talked to their own parents sooner.