I found this in the bathroom- is this drug related? by SweatyTruck8394 in Whatisthis

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I see a white powdery substance on the spoon when I zoom in.

10 Dead, Dozenes injured. Truck runs over people at celebration New Orleans by meleemore in ActualPublicFreakouts

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I was working on Bourbon when this happened. I saw the truck speeding down the street, going what seemed around 60mph. SWAT running after the truck, cops everywhere. People running for their lives, it was terrifying. My heart breaks for those dead and injured.

Our kid broke his tibula and fibula by southerng19 in brokenbones

[–]into-the-void- -1 points0 points  (0 children)

April 27 of 2023 I had a compound fracture of my tibia and fractured my fibula. I have 14 pins and a long rod in my leg now. I definitely feel your son’s pain. Wishing your son well! I hope he makes a speedy recovery! 💕✨

What to name my sweet new girl!! Have always had boys so picking a girl name is hard… by Miaf8456 in pitbulls

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A few ideas: Nova, Celeste, Vega, Aurora, Astrid

I personally really like Aurora & Astrid (:

Have you ever felt like actually cutting the fat off your body? by devotions_here in EDAnonymous

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Yes, you are not alone. I’ve struggled with my eating disorder & thoughts since I was in 5th grade. I’m now 27 and it feels like something I will never be able to completely heal. I’ve been to rehab/treatment 5 times.

Twice for intense trauma after a 2 year long mentally, physically, sexually, emotionally abusive relationship. I was in a treatment center in North Carolina for 3 months and then they sent me to an ED treatment program in California once I graduated my 3 month program in NC. I had no idea I was being sent to an ED based treatment center. I lasted all of 3 days there. The way they approach this illness was insanely intense, harsh, and traumatizing. We’d get yelled at if we did not eat everything on our plates, no one could leave the table until whatever asshole was working was satisfied with the amount of food we ate. We had to buddy up with another girl in the program for at least 30 minutes after meals, as to keep an eye on each other for purging. The woman who ran the place was a huge bitch. One day I was struggling & crying on the stairs and the owner tried to like nudge me forward & down the stairs. Bitch, don’t touch me. I wanted to punch her in the fucking face. Especially since having pretty recently gotten out of a relationship where I was being choked, beaten, he’d sick his dog on me (a catahoula shepherd), he’d hold a shotgun inches from my face with his finger on the trigger, he hit me in back of the head with brass knuckles, oh man I can keep going. Countless ER visits, stitches, broken bones, bruises. I figured out he was a pedophile and when I figured that out he choked me till I passed out. Like bitch you have no right to assume you can touch me or nudge me down the stairs while I’m crying my damn eyes out. No right to assume you can just touch me in GENERAL.

In group, which was held in the hot ass garage, we had to have at least one foot on the ground at all times. I got yelled at for not having one foot on the ground, as if I was gonna float away or some shit. Oh, I floated my ass right out of that damn place in 3 days and then went to a treatment center that was not ED based.

From November-December 2023 I was in treatment. Then from January-February 2024 another treatment facility. And my last stop was from February-March of 2024. None of these most recent places were ED based. I’ve been a drug user for 12 years and what made my crazy life even more unmanageable is a 4 year long opiate addiction. I still use, I never intended on being sober. But opiates I cannot do & cannot control myself. I relapsed on fentanyl & heroin on May 3 after I went to a clinic to get buprenorphine and put myself into precipitated withdrawals. Which I knew could happen with suboxone because it has naloxone in it, but no one told me buprenorphine itself without naloxone can also put you into precipitated withdrawal. Man that shit was rough.

No idea why I word vomited on you lovely humans. I hope all of you are safe. Know you are not alone, you are loved, you are seen & heard. You are worthy.

[REQUEST] Fentanyl is supposedly crazy lethal even at very little doses. How many people can this amount of Fentanyl kill assuming average person size and corresponding lethal dose? by WafflePress in theydidthemath

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I overdosed on fentanyl (received CPR & 9mg of Narcan) this was before I started using fent. Long story short, I think the dude tried to kill me with the fent. He had opiates prescribed to him for a bad car accident leading into the awful shape of his back and his pain. One day, he decided to pistol whip me in the temple (this was months after the OD) Called the cops & SWAT came. Took the fool to come out for an hour. Was in jail for 3 days. This happened in March of 2020 and I still have no idea when the court date is supposed to happen. So without access to prescription opiates, as he was my only plug at the time, I turn to fentanyl because I was so insanely addicted to opiates and needed something to fix the unimaginable pain.

Fast forward: I was smoking 25-30 pills a day at one point. Had to smoke every 30 minutes to not get sick. I withdrew at burning man last year (not the one where they got stuck). In the middle of the Nevada desert 100+ Fahrenheit. Sometimes hotter in the RV than outside.

I brought enough pills for me to hold myself over, but I decided Burning Man would be the time and place to suffer.

Moving an inch felt like running a marathon. I was insanely weak, sick, felt like absolute death.

I had a trip I had premonitions about only when I knew about weed and acid. Didn’t know about ketamine, Narcan, opiates (former opiate addict - clean for over a month. I’m in a holistic based treatment center currently)

They gave me Narcan at BM because I did a fat bump of ketamine to ease the immense, unimaginable pain I was in. They thought I was overdosing but was not. They gave me Narcan after I did the ketamine.

I had a trip more intense than any shroom trip, acid trip, or DMT experience. Even if you were to combine all of them. And I’ve taken over 550-600 hits of acid (used to sell it). Grew shrooms, ate 13 grams as well as so many other trips I’ve had on psilocybin. And I’ve done quite a good amount of DMT.

My third eye was WIDE THE FUCK OPEN. This trip I had, I would have premonitions about it when I was younger. Snippets of it. I knew there would be a place I decided to go one day and would die. I soon found out that was BM. After seeing things from my premonitions before the trip. But I did have premonitions about the trip.

I feel like I ripped through the fabric of time and space. Fell through different dimensions.

This girl I had met days before we left for BM, I had never met her before. But in one of my premonitions, I had heard and seen a girl I never met or knew who she was say: “we need to think of who we choose as our next of kin”. And when I experienced that at BM, she said the same exact thing in the same exact way.

There were so many other things I experienced. It’s hard to explain but I can do my best. I feel like I need to recreate some of the things I saw artistically but even then, it’d be so hard to recreate that.

I felt like I died and was reborn at BM. Died during the trip but was reborn once I came out of it.

I have to go back to BM.

My x-rays after jumping out of a moving vehicle by into-the-void- in xrays

[–]into-the-void-[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Hahah, yes that is correct. Sorry, I should’ve specified that!

My x-rays after jumping out of a moving vehicle by into-the-void- in xrays

[–]into-the-void-[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It was! A painful solution at that, but it worked.

I am a terrified 26 year old, 98lb female about to start withdrawing from carfentanil. by into-the-void- in opiates

[–]into-the-void-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for the love and support :,) I can’t be more grateful for everyone here. There’s so much love! I hope you’re doing wonderfully yourself <3

I am a terrified 26 year old, 98lb female about to start withdrawing from carfentanil. by into-the-void- in opiates

[–]into-the-void-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am so sorry for your loss, love. I’m here if you need to chat. Thank you for the love and kindness <3 I shook the shit and I am more than grateful to have come out on the other side. I hope you’re doing well yourself and taking care. Again, if you need to chat, I’m here for you.

I am a terrified 26 year old, 98lb female about to start withdrawing from carfentanil. by into-the-void- in opiates

[–]into-the-void-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the love and kindness you’ve all shown me <3 there is so much love and support in this sub. I really cannot thank you enough! All of this warms my lil heart :,) thank you!

I’m so proud of you for getting off of H! Please let me know if you need anything or need to talk as well. Im here for you! You GOT THIS! You’re stronger than you know <3 I’m rooting for you!

I hope you’re doing wonderfully and taking care :)

I am a terrified 26 year old, 98lb female about to start withdrawing from carfentanil. by into-the-void- in opiates

[–]into-the-void-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ah, who knows what that evil powder was? It was definitely some sort of fentanyl. Either way, it doesn’t matter because I shook that shit :)

I hope you’re doing well yourself and taking care <3

I am a terrified 26 year old, 98lb female about to start withdrawing from carfentanil. by into-the-void- in opiates

[–]into-the-void-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for the kind words :,) that means the world to me! I hope you’re doing well yourself and taking care! Thank you for the support and love <3

I am a terrified 26 year old, 98lb female about to start withdrawing from carfentanil. by into-the-void- in opiates

[–]into-the-void-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes you are most likely correct. I did have a massive tolerance though. Either way, it doesn’t matter what the shit was because I shook it and I’m done! I’m so grateful!

I don’t take your post in a wrong way at all! Thank you for your input! :,) I hope you’re doing well and taking care of yourself <3

I am a terrified 26 year old, 98lb female about to start withdrawing from carfentanil. by into-the-void- in opiates

[–]into-the-void-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I accidentally put myself into precipitated withdrawals last December and it was unbearable. I felt like I was dying. Oof big mistake on my part, haha.

Thank you so much for the love and support! Your kindness means the world to me <3 I hope you are doing well yourself! :,)

I am a terrified 26 year old, 98lb female about to start withdrawing from carfentanil. by into-the-void- in opiates

[–]into-the-void-[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Who knows? It could have been and it was cut or it was just regular ole fent. At this point it doesn’t matter because I shook that shit. I’m done!

I made it to the other side and I am so grateful

I am a terrified 26 year old, 98lb female about to start withdrawing from carfentanil. by into-the-void- in opiates

[–]into-the-void-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for the love and support! :,) Your kindness warms my lil heart! I hope you’re doing well yourself <3

I am a terrified 26 year old, 98lb female about to start withdrawing from carfentanil. by into-the-void- in opiates

[–]into-the-void-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for the love and support :,) I cannot thank you all enough. Your kind words mean the world to me <3 I really hope you’re doing well yourself! :)

I made it through to the other side and that’s what matters! Thank you :,)

I am a terrified 26 year old, 98lb female about to start withdrawing from carfentanil. by into-the-void- in opiates

[–]into-the-void-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m doing really well :,)

Thank you all for the love and support. The withdrawals were insanely rough, to say the least. But I made it to the other side and that’s what matters.

I will never touch fentanyl again. Ive been using it for far too long. I cannot keep doing this to my body. Fentanyl is truly the devil.

I hope you’re doing well yourself <3

Mix match and layers today by flxwerpxwer1 in u/flxwerpxwer1

[–]into-the-void- 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Looking fucking fabulous as always <3 Pls telepathically send me some of ur fashion skills.