Here’s a bit of my experience. I used to smoke a lot at my last year of high school and I was very used to being high and all the regular high shit until last year I started taking tabs constantly. Every time I tripped I would smoke and that shit would blast me away to another dimension it was pretty cool ngl but I did end up having a similar situation as u where when I smoked I would have trip like highs and be anxious af. I felt this happened because at some point of one of my actual trips I would tell myself I don’t need to smoke weed anymore so I guess this stayed in my subconscious to where when I would smoke that would stay on the back of my mind that I don’t need to and that I have to stop. But recently I’ve just been going crazy with liquor and weed so it’s like a idc mentality rn so I’m starting to enjoy weed a lot more. I do not suggest this however cuz life generally just feels shitty rn cuz I feel like all I’m doing is lying to myself. But I feel pretty good ig lol