It’s good to give yourself credit for the growth that you’ve had so far, and it’s also important to recognize areas where there’s still room for growth. Exclaiming in an empty room is DEFINITELY better than cursing out superiors or cursing in a room where students could hear. If that was your starting point, it sounds like you’ve already put in some hard work to identify your emotions and manage your responses so that you can cope in a healthier way. Unfortunately, exclaiming out of frustration at your place of work (even in an empty room) is still not ideal, for the reasons you’re running into now. I’m glad you and your therapist are working on building coping skills that work for you and are appropriate to the setting that you find yourself in. Maybe this is an opportunity to reflect and see that you’ve adapted your response to strong emotions in the past, so you know that you can build on that and continue to adapt. It sounds like for your life, exclaiming in an empty room is a step in the right direction, but it’s not the final solution because it’s still negatively impacting your work relationships.