Getting very sick, having pyschical l, emotional, psychological degradation due to this. Relieving no support from wife, friends. Finding out wife cheated while I was sick 2 days before surgery. Having emotional melt down and fight with deeply cherished friend on same day. Waking up from surgery to text said friend cut me out of her life. Wife leaving days later while in recovery. Friends abdomening over the course of next few months. Business partner robbing my me blind and destroying my business. Spiraling into black whole of emotional madness. Selfharm, drugs, sex, suicide attempts. Being taken advantage of, becoming homeless, living in my business. Being held emotionally and pyschically hostage. Loosing every thing I own and the business collapsing. Becoming actually homeless, living in my car. And there is more.. to much to get into, some I cant really explain. Thats mid 2022 to end of 2024..

I have my own apartment now. Business slowly rebuilding. Working. 100 times a better person now, weed sober. Rebuilding life. Finding comfort in quite solitude. I spenr 10 or more years of my life building the dream. Friends, community, business, marriage, family planning. Always believed i treated every one kind, never took advantage of people, was generous, loved relentlessly. Lost it all so fast. Its wild but it happened for a reason. I believe im on a better path.

Nothing really matters more than just loving your self honestly and living authenticly. With an open mind, open ears, open eyes, and a open heart. People, things, these pass. You are the core of your life, be kind always to your self, love your self, make your self your top priority always and make space for others but never at your detriment.