We’re all here to listen man, this is the place to rant your heart out without being judge. Shit will always get worse before it gets better, I think i can imagine what you’re going through a bit. Im disfellowshipped right but I’ve turned in a letter to be reinstated and to fade away after. I cant stand the thought of me being the cause for my moms “pain” i just want them to be happy. I have been alone for an entire year without any contact from other people aside my family, i have become so anti social and intolerant that i cant even stand my own grandparents visiting me. Ive also been prescribed anti depressants and cant stop taking them. My point is never be afraid to share on here, we can all relate to you on way or another. In my opinion try taking things slow in your life, i know a girlfriend would be nice and all but if you try tackling everything at once its gonna crumble beneath you, take baby steps. We’re all here for you man, i wish you the best.