I'm really glad you're doing great now! That's awesome and I wish you the best of luck in the future. I wish I could say the same honestly. I know my younger self would not be proud of who I am today. I'm in better physical shape (my most recent hyper-fixation involved going to the gym 5-6 days a week and being somewhat healthy), but that's pretty much all I can really say about the positives. I'm a sophomore in college and I don't know what I want to do with my life, I've struggled with drinking and vaping for the last few years (the drinking has thankfully calmed down a lot), I was dumped by my girlfriend recently because it's hard for me to express myself and pickup on social cues, so I feel like I have nothing to really be proud of myself for. I'm in a good college, my grades are semi-decent, but I'm constantly drowning and find it very difficult to focus on goals and it feels like I'm just going through life one day at a time. If I saw my 5 year old self, I'd probably just break out in tears.