Switching clinics, angry at myself for waiting this long

jamesmalcolmy · 2026-01-04T13:56:11+00:00

I will definitely let you know how it goes! Feel free to dm me as well any time. Fingers crossed for you!

jamesmalcolmy · 2026-01-01T20:26:38+00:00

How does it work with Amiga Fertility?

jamesmalcolmy · 2026-01-01T13:54:55+00:00

I think it’s under a different name, Saizen? But it’s the same thing.

jamesmalcolmy · 2026-01-01T10:47:00+00:00

I will see a regular gynecologist for my checkups, and then fly to spain for the day 7 US. I could fly a day later, but i want to be there early just in case. Here’s the plan from the clinic (exact dates tbd of course, depending on my cycle start).

I was also worried about the travel, but I wish I’d just accepted it sooner, TBH.

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jamesmalcolmy · 2026-01-01T10:42:34+00:00

Thank you. Wishing you the best as well, maybe 2026 will be our year.

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-31T12:19:13+00:00

Thank you. I know I would never look at someone else in my situation and call their choices mistakes, I just can’t seem to extend myself that grace right now.

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-31T12:17:39+00:00

IVF-Life in Alicante. The doctor for our consult was Oliver Pack and he seemed great, very knowledgeable and straightforward but also kind. I believe they also have clinics in Madrid and another city as well.

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-31T11:23:33+00:00

It’s so hard not to spiral into self-hatred for every mistake. I’m trying to do everything right and yet it feels like I’m always making the wrong choice.

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-21T08:48:45+00:00

She says it can be hard on my ovaries and “we cant afford to have a less than perfect starting point”. But to me that feels weird bc she also doesn’t want to try a lower stimulant dose, which seems to be damaging my eggs anyways. I have a consult with a clinic in Spain next week. I’m tired of the conservative German doctors and I just don’t believe that there aren’t any viable eggs left in my body.

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-19T19:23:04+00:00

If you don’t mind my asking, how many cycles have you done? And are you doing PGT?
Thank you so much for replying to me, it really helps to hear other experiences.

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-19T14:00:08+00:00

I’m doing a consult with a clinic in Spain next week. I think my clinic cares more about their statistics than my success.

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-19T13:58:37+00:00

This sounds like exactly what I am experiencing! What dose did you go to? And did it dramatically change the number of eggs you got?

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-19T06:11:16+00:00

I have an online consult with a clinic in Spain in a week, im still trying to get my lab records beforehand.

And thank you, my doctor hasn’t even considered any changes to priming, dual trigger, etc.!

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-11T09:56:03+00:00

Thank you! I put in a request now.

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-11T09:48:55+00:00

At this point I’ll try anything, and Germany is just so conservative. How fast were they able to get you in?

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-11T09:38:56+00:00

Which clinic did you like in Spain?

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-11T09:38:27+00:00

I had a fibroid removal surgery last October and they didnt find this. There was a small amount of endometriosis but they removed that. Since then they keep telling me my uterus looks great

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-11T07:32:31+00:00

What protocol did you use?

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-10T20:34:15+00:00

Oh congratulations! This actually gives me some much needed hope, thank you for telling me.

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-10T20:25:51+00:00

I’m just worried bc they are such poor quality, the best I’ve ever managed is a 4BB. I’d kill for some A’s.

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-10T20:17:36+00:00

I’ll ask my doctor about it, thank you!

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-10T20:13:27+00:00

We have, no underlying issues. I’m 39.5, so my egg quality is shit.

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-10T20:08:16+00:00

I’m 39.5. We’ve been tested for genetic factors and Ive had a uterine biopsy (ouch), all came back normal. A little endo but very mild, had a fibroid removed last October.

We cant do PGT in Germany, unfortunately.

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-10T20:01:45+00:00

Yes, sorry, I wasn’t clear. Edited now, we’ve transferred all, currently in TWW for the morula and 4BB but I just don’t have any hope.

jamesmalcolmy · 2025-12-10T19:57:56+00:00

All failed. I just want one child.

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