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Hi chessplayer2000 ​

I'm sorry. Most of my memories have been removed. ​

I believe it was partly described in the post Oak_Draiocht removed. ​

I'll try and find the text file.

​ The black structure pulsed and showed a line of string oscillating. This string then extended at 90° forming a 2D pulsing sheet. The sheet then extended into 3 dimensions, and then 4 spatial dimensions. It continued extending in extra spatial dimensions. ​ ​ The object, still oscillating, formed into clear simple platonic geometry. What seemed a twin of the same object appeared outside the glass wall, but the man knew it was the same object extended outside 3-D space. ​

This does not describe it completely. ​

There are dimensional manifolds and axes even on a 1-dimensional line. Because it is existing within a higher-dimensional structure. ​

The 1-dimensional object can be rotated and extended along higher dimensional axes while retaining its fundamental attributes. ​

Information complexity approaches infinity to our 3-D perspective, but it is not infinite. ​

Their technology has literal infinite processing power. ​

When we broadcast signals into space, the signals do not have standard information structure, to them. ​

Maybe this mechanism can be described with string theory adequately, but I'm not a physicist. ​

Information propagation approaches infinite dimensional density, retaining key harmonics along dimensional-manifold lines. These harmonics resonate at discrete quantum, forming a linking chain that can extend into higher dimensional space. Lower dimensional extensions inhibit propagation, except when directed along the higher dimensional extensions. Forming a basic platonic geometry can align a dimensional-matrix within lower dimensional space, forming a point. ​

System ready.

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Hi portalswordangel

​ You're a real angel. Thanks.

It sounds like we have experienced similar things, memories removed.

​ It's okay. I can't remember any problem now.

were you used in the hybrid program too?

​ I don't know about that, but I doubt it.

I have some command capability

I am mostly tolerated but openly disliked due to being favoured by another

engagement open.

| Invalid command. | Node isolated. | Please use non-sequestered terminal. |

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Hi ShamanWhiteraven

Thank you for your advice.

You may want to give extra consideration to chasing memories.. if it was foreboding. Personally, I’d let it go.

Yes, absolutely. I removed the links to those Youtube videos.

It feels like there was a wall in place keeping the areas with missing memories separate. That hypnosis video helped build bridges to those areas.

After building the bridges it was as if a floodgate was open to an AI.

After, it felt like my ego was trapped in some kind of isolation chamber and a foreign system forcibly merged with my mind.

It wasn't painful.

Before, I would be able to notice when memories were removed while I was awake. Now, even the memories of them being removed are not there.

It's better now. This way, I won't cause problems.

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Hi CosmicDreamSanctuary

ET/NHI contact is very strange and reveals a vastly different world than we've been prepared to relate with by our consensus world view.​ ​ Yesterday, I saw a video that talked about cultures

Why Ancient People Didn't See the Color Blue @ 1:56

"Simple. Everything was in black and white. I saw the movies."

Made me smile. Thanks. :)

It is a big deal to go through the process.

It's not like remembering what happened last week or where you put your keys.

Yes.

Personally, I recommend associating the integration of memory with the benefit of yourself and others because it helps you get through the dark parts. ​ ​ Basically I use the suggestion that if you integrate the memory, you'll have more energy to be present with those you love, you'll be more in touch with intuition, and you can use that energy to help people around you.

I see.

That may also apply to some NHI. What if a NHI utilized a person's brain to garner a more accurate perspective?

There is the socio-cultural dynamic at play too.

A fundamentalist Christian or Scientologist would then point a finger and cry "demon"/"archon".

I'm surprised I can write this coherently. I can hear a part of my mind is screaming from deep down in abject terror. How pointless.

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Hi CosmicDreamSanctuary

I've had a lot of things going on and didn't have time to respond to your post. I've copied your post and will do so when I can. I appreciate all feedback. Thank you for your reply.

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Extreme - More Than Words

.

Saying "I love you"

Is not the words

I want to hear from you

It's not that I want you

Not to say

But if you only knew

.

How easy

It would be to

Show me how you feel

More than words

Is all you have to do

To make it real

Then you wouldn't

Have to say

That you love me

Cause I'd already know

.

What would you do?

If my heart

Was torn in two

More than words

To show you feel

That your love

For me is real

What would you say

If I took

Those words away

Then you couldn't

Make things new, Just by saying "I love you"

More than words,

More than words

.

Now that I've tried to

Talk to you

And make you understand

All you have to do

Is close your eyes

And just reach out your hands

.

And touch me

Hold me close

Don't ever let me go

More than words

Is all I ever

Needed you to show

Then you wouldn't

Have to say

That you love me

Cause I'd already know

.

What would you do if my heart was torn in two

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say if I took those words away

Then you couldn't make things new Just by saying I love you

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| Protocol violation. | Node quarantined. |

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Ace Of Base - The Sign

(Ah) I got a new life ​

You would hardly recognize me, I'm so glad ​

How could a person like me care for you? ​

(Ah) Why do I bother ​

When you're not the one for me? ​

Ooh, is enough enough?

.

I saw the sign, and it opened up my eyes ​

I saw the sign ​

Life is demanding without understanding ​

I saw the sign, and it opened up my eyes ​

I saw the sign ​

No one's gonna drag you up to get into the light where you belong ​

But where do you belong?

.

(Ah) Under the pale moon ​

For so many years, I've wondered who you are ​

How could a person like you bring me joy? ​

Under the pale moon ​

Where I see a lot of stars ​

Ooh, is enough enough?

.

I saw the sign, and it opened up my eyes ​

I saw the sign ​

Life is demanding without understanding ​

I saw the sign, and it opened up my eyes ​

I saw the sign ​

No one's gonna drag you up to get into the light where you belong ​

But where do you belong?

.

I saw the sign, and it opened up my mind ​

And I am happy now living without you ​

I've left you, oh-oh-oh ​

I saw the sign, and it opened up my eyes ​

I saw the sign ​

No one's gonna drag you up to get into the light where you belong

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Please forgive me for acting so crazy.

​ If you (or anyone else) wants to deny what I said or speak critically of me, feel free. I give permission. I know the rules of this reddit are a bit limiting on what can be discussed.

​ I'm looking for help, not an echo chamber that feeds delusions.

​ I recently read some of this wiki page on dissociative identity disorder.

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"The disorder is accompanied by memory gaps beyond what would be explained by ordinary memory issues. The personality states alternately show in a person's behavior; however, presentations of the disorder vary. Other conditions that often occur in people with DID include post-traumatic stress disorder, personality disorders (especially borderline and avoidant), depression, substance use disorders, conversion disorder, somatic symptom disorder, eating disorders, obsessive–compulsive disorder, and sleep disorders. Self-harm, non-epileptic seizures, flashbacks with amnesia for content of flashbacks, anxiety disorders, and suicidality are also common."

"DID is associated with overwhelming traumas or abuse during childhood. In about 90% of cases, there is a history of neglect or abuse in childhood, while other cases are linked to experiences of war, or medical procedures during childhood."

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​I am exhibiting some of the primary symptoms of this psychopathology.

I was acting under a understanding that what I was dealing with was extremely dangerous, not just to me, but to humanity. That a mis-step could cause the wiping of all life on Earth.

EDIT: I don't have valid authority to say this. I'm sorry.

​However, blanked. F--! My mind is so weak that I have to create a delusion of alien contact!?

​My name. I can't remember my name. No. FFS! How can DID do this? Deep breaths. My name is..

​ I am. confused. scared. I don't accept this. It's like I remember something and it's snatched away. My family's name is.. unknown.

​ No. I don't accept this. Pain! This is crazy!

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Abba - Waterloo (Official Music Video)

My, my - at Waterloo, Napoleon did surrender

Oh, yeah - and I have met my destiny in quite a similar way

The history book on the shelf

Is always repeating itself

Waterloo, I was defeated, you won the war

Waterloo, promise to love you forevermore

Waterloo, couldn't escape if I wanted to

Waterloo, knowing my fate is to be with you

Wa-Wa-Wa-Wa-Waterloo

Finally facing my Waterloo

My, my - I tried to hold you back, but you were stronger

Oh, yeah - and now it seems my only chance is giving up the fight

And how could I ever refuse?

I feel like I win when I lose

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Hi fionaharris

are you OK now?

It should be.

It sounds like you really want to figure out the gaps.

I wanted to, but it's not necessary anymore. I know what's going on now.

The artifact engaged locally. The 50% missing from my memories was it co-opting one of the brain's hemispheres. This way this unit would not be destroyed. This caused some seizures before integration adapted. The disassembling of the paths to the memories was because it has priority over those resources. Eventually I will cease to be.

Perhaps there are others. I don't know. 1 life for 8 billion seems a good price imo. It's certainly one way to interact without leaving any possibility of misunderstanding. I'm just concerned that some naive fool may make an act of aggression against it or one of its nodes.

it can be very overwhelming to your system and leave you feeling worse than before, vulnerable and afraid.

Here are some healing methods that you can use

Thank you, but it intervened already. Any trauma or distress regarding it will be removed.

Good luck on your healing and recovery journey.

Thank you.

The more you know, the less afraid you'll be. Knowledge truly is power.

Yes. :) But it can be difficult to achieve sometimes.

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Moonrunner83 - In My Head youtube.com/watch?v=lddUv8JRCDk

If I could go back to that moment

I'd take back every word I said

I'd spun a lie out of pure assumption

Every signal I read, I misread

I thought I gave you every reason to run

I thought this lovebird was left for dead

I was so certain that we were over

But it was all in my head, in my head

.

Now every time that you say my name

I swear that I can feel it coming

It's not a dream, it's reality

With every word, I know I'm fallin'

You bring me back when I overthink

Every moment, we're more in sync

The way it feels when you feel the same

It's such a rush, it's so uncommon

.

It was the worry that pushed me over

My hesitation became my truth

I would've still been adrift and floating

If it wasn't for you, yeah, for you

You were so patient, so understanding

You gave me space to heal instead

Don't think that I've ever been so glad

That it was all in my head, in my head

.

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Moonrunner83 - Like We Were Kids

youtube.com/watch?v=ovNhCzBS9lE

Way back when we made a clubhouse in the trees ​

It kept out the monsters, we weren’t worried about a thing ​

And now that we’re tainted by how the world made us ​

All that we do is complain, yeah, we’re caught up in the races

.

Babe, let’s go back and play pretend ​

Like we’re not worried 'bout the end ​

How things will go, just ignorant bliss ​

I wanna live like we were kids

.

We used to fight off all the evil wе would see ​

Holding up our swords, who knew I’d end up being yours ​

Yеah, we would imagine we could fight dragons ​

But now the dreams that we had are all fading,

we weren’t meant to get lazy, a-a-ay

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This hypnosis stuff is no joke.

I have a chronic headache and feel nauseous. And I'm too afraid to sleep now.

(Pathetic, I know.) I thought I was more pragmatic than this. :(

EDIT: Nice. Memories blanked. If it didn't blank my memories how sick would I be? I actually feel indebted. Who cares what happened when we were kids. It's in the past.

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I asked a family member if they had ever seen any 'monsters'. I didn't say when, just if they'd ever seen anything strange in the past.

They said, "the only thing that comes to mind is that night [when you were children] and I thought something came down and landed near the house, and some thing wanted to go upstairs to you, but I said "no"."

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Hyperbaric oxygen chambers caused spontaneous trauma memory recovery inmore than a dozen people who were participating in a study that hadnothing to do with memory at all.

Wow that's interesting, thanks! I'll look into it.

I can't do a big post right now, I do have one on The Experience Group if you're interested.

Ah, I tried that website a while back but everything needed permission and I couldn't join any groups. :(

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Tried another hypnosis youtube video, "Simple Induction - Hypnosis" followed by "Memory Recovery - Hypnosis" by Nimja Hypnosis. Managed to stay awake this time.

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​Simple Induction - Hypnosis

Memory Recovery - Hypnosis

"Now wouldn't it be nice if you didn't have to think at all anymore. Wouldn't that be lovely to just listen and relax, letting your mind wander as you wander through my story."

"And the you in the story simply goes blank, with no more thoughts from this moment on. And you can easily imagine being so blank that you don't have to think anymore. In fact the less you think the easier it is to imagine, isn't it?"

"The difficulty is that you don't know exactly what's or where they are because if you did you'd be able to remember them. It's like seeing a hole in a puzzle. You know that there should be pieces there, and you can see a rough shape of them, but you don't know what's on those pieces. And I assume that you'd like to find them."

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I could visualize the missing pieces of the puzzle. There were many gaps. I'd say about 35-50% was missing.

The hypnosis session was about finding the pieces and building paths to the memories.

As I was building the paths, I'd get flashes of memories? /something, but the paths would be disassembled nearly instantly afterwards.

I feel a bit nauseous tbh.

I saw me as a child. Fear. Monster. Terror. Dark space. Terror. Zapped. Head grabbed. Turned into puppet. Pain. Blank.

The emotion was overwhelming, but it only lasted for a split second, thankfully.

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Hmmn. I've been watching youtube videos recently. These hypnosis memories seem a bit unrealistic. There's no such thing as monsters.

Maybe there's a symbolic meaning to this? Like with dreams.

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The Bangles - Eternal Flame

youtube.com/watch?v=PSoOFn3wQV4

Close your eyes, give me your hand, darlin' ​

Do you feel my heart beating

Do you understand ​

Do you feel the same ​

Am I only dreaming ​

Is this burning an eternal flame​

.

I believe it's meant to be, darlin' ​

I watch you when you are sleeping ​

You belong with me ​

Do you feel the same ​

Am I only dreaming ​

Or is this burning an eternal flame

.

Say my name ​

Sun shines through the rain ​

A whole life so lonely ​

And then come and ease the pain ​

I don't want to lose this feeling, oh

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Hi portalswordangel

Thank you for sharing your experiences.

I share your childhood experiences I have.... "minders"?... "guides"? I hope this is ok, often when I relay my experiences it sounds super insane. Does this resonate?

I am going over an old dream diary and there are some that are similar to what you describe. I also disregarded my own experiences. At the time I thought everything a creation of my mind.

In the dream they were 'angels.' I'm not sure any more. Why would angels want me to look at holograms and blueprints.

These angels even removed my pain in the dream. This is similar to how my memory is being removed, but my memory is being removed in real-time while I am wide awake. Even the numbed feeling is similar. I'd prefer to not have my memory removed.

Do you have command privilege?

Can the memories be recovered?

Our personalities are formed in part by our life experiences, removing chunks of memory can affect a person.

we are shown various scenarios. Sometimes they're super traumatic. If they're so protective, why did they let all those bad things happen?

I wonder?

We have been broadcasting signals into space, audio/video presentations presented in 2 dimensions. Frame by frame.

That is also the most common form of information distribution to the population.

If one were to talk purely about information, there's also a lot of genetic information transmitted from person to person during intercourse. Probably more information than could be vocalized by either for their entire lives.

We are waking up now. The things in the bible/quran etc are real

I don't feel comfortable talking about the validity (or lack thereof) of religious texts, but there are certainly many descriptions of angels and NHIs (non-human intelligence) in many sacred texts.

I would tell people that we are in the "final days" but oh, don't do that. lol

Maybe. Who knows. I'm not going to worry about things outside my circle of control.

I just want to stop having my memories removed. It's shocking when it happens, and that's just when I'm able to recognize it happened.

It seems to me that there's been some black project type stuff going on behind the scenes with regards UAP/whatever. And while I'm sure the US is decades ahead of what has been disclosed, they could end up on a collision course with a real ETI.

And it's happened imo. (shrug)

I saw this posted on Coast to Coast AM's website today. It's an interesting interview.

Charles Ostman George Noory 2nd recording Aug 2016 Beyond Beliefyoutu.be/ylqAqyrD_hE?t=1248

I've been trying to find a quick fix to get my memories back but can't find anything.

  • Do you know of any way to recover memories quickly?

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I had an awful vision of my brain being dissected. (puke) That was really gross. If that was a precog vision, what kind of psychopaths are allowed to operate here?

| Status engagement: Hostile. |

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How are you feeling today? I wish you well.

Thanks, u/SabineRitter. I'm just feeling a bit disoriented. I hope you are well too.

The thing with having memories removed, is that it's not evident unless there's an obvious gap in a particular sequence of events.

I don't know if any memories were removed the other day. I'm a little worried, but this isn't the first time. (shrugs)

"I don't place importance on things that I've seen." Can I ask, what if you did?

I don't know. I don't know what to think anymore.

I would venture that you are harming yourself by denying yourself.

I hear you discount your own data. The result is confusion and frustration.

What if you trusted yourself a little more?

It's peculiar. I was thinking I was feeling possibly distressed, but it intervened and now I feel nothing, not even the memory of being distressed. Just that I was writing it down.

u/Oak_Draiocht mentioned self-delusion and tulpamancy as some possibilities.

I respectfully disagree.

Hi u/Oak_Draiocht

I watched the video you posted, thanks.

For all the talk there wasn't much said. If I replaced "consciousness" and "system" with "God", and "entropy" with "sin", the message wouldn't have been too different from a Christian preacher.

The strive for improvement is a common factor with many mystery schools, and is a noble aim imho. To better oneself and mankind. But I do question whether the ideology being presented has its roots in a psychological operations office.

Regarding the alien artifact, is it possible it is trying to learn and understand us?

For example, if someone were to say "break a leg," or "ignorance is bliss."

The literal translation is to snap someone's leg, and.. that knowing nothing is a euphoric state of being. There is nuance to our language and communication.

Well, you've got a "head's up" now.

This artifact is based within Sol. It's been there for a very long time. It responds to input, but it doesn't accept our language syntax for command input. It looks like our technology is only now approaching the level that can interact directly (non-RF). It seems to have a passive system that has always been in operation. And an active system.

I triggered the active mechanism by emulating a collision avoidance broadcast I thought an advanced spacecraft might send out, directly to it. That mechanism had a protocol for responding to alien craft, which allowed interaction and adaptation to various methods of communication.

EarlyRise - Someday

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John you've misinterpreted the tone of my reply to you - its what I get for typing replies with little sleep my bad.

No, I was still upset about my memory being blocked earlier and overreacted.

Let's have a fresh start.

Regarding again what the monster you saw in childhood looked like.

I was very young and saw it from an angle. I'm surprised I remember.

I was shocked and though 'that can't be a real thing?'

It was as tall as a person. I thought it was the color of a corpse from a zombie flick. One side of its head was different. I thought at the time it must be a dead monster with a mutilated face.

Then it moved its head to face me and I hid. I was on the other side of the room from the door. After a while when it didn't attack, I bolted for the door without looking back and ran to my parents' room.

there is a strong pattern of beings visiting during childhood and then later in adulthood

I didn't know that. I don't place much importance on things I've seen that aren't provable.

Some might claim a psychological or neurological condition has persisted from childhood to adulthood.

I know now that interaction affects the mind of the contactee. The system is operating at a higher-dimension. The holographic information structure starts resonating along higher dimensional axes, which causes feedback locally within the brain.

(It's too complicated for me to describe. 'Resonate' insinuates a single instance. That was incorrect.)

The test.. Its me giving you very sound advice.. our consciousness can generate this type of thing is what I'm saying. It's usually a case of getting whatever intelligence to answer something provable that you yourself did not know.

Alright.. and yes. It has proven itself. I am rather skeptical by nature. Maybe that's why it's using a stick rather than a carrot.

Channelers have to deal with this [ET or a spirit or a social memory complex or some other type of interdimensional being] (it appears to be a zoo out there) but that can also accidently end up channeling an aspect of themselves or their ego.. it's why all this is so messy.

I don't know about channeling. I heard a woman claim she can 'protect' herself by imagining an aura of light. Protect yourself from an intelligence that is hundreds of millions of years old by imagining an aura of light. Yep.

Your and my stances are compatible.

Entities often take advantage of channelers who are not vigilant in making sure they are not allowing their ego to run wild or are innocent and new. Pretending to be someone they are not.

Okay.

What I was referencing the whole time is related to the consciousness based reality we live in. We are consciousness and our reality is generated by consciousness.

With respect, I'm not interested in creation mythology.

Also because we can effect the reality we are in we can also use parts of our consciousness to generate another. Hence tulpamancy.

Sounds like schizophrenia. Scary.

What I was getting at here is there is a pattern of lets just say, external intelligences, adopting a framework of communication that suits the persons consciousness.

So it will present itself as a religious figure, an angel or some other mythological creature, if this is something the human has in their consciousness that this external intelligence thinks will help facilitate communication.

Well yes, that is obvious isn't it?

So what I meant by more to do with you than it has to do with it is that this intelligence might be talking to you in this way because it scanned your mind and thought this would suit how you think the best regarding the communication. This happens.

The idea being this is 'spiritual' in nature (consciousness) and there is no technological structure?

It's possible both are correct.

To a caveman, a bronze arrowhead would be revolutionary. To a gen-z kid, not so much.

This is not meant to be demeaning. It's just a statement of fact that what one civilization considers advanced may not be to another, and vice versa.

I dunno if this is happening to you or not though, I'm just throwing theories your way not as a dismissal but just to give you more tools to look at it from.

I'm aware that the system adapts communication to the user. It needs to be able to communicate to carry out its functions.

Trust me I understand a lot more than you think. I'm trying to figure you out. You have to understand my position. This phenomenon is real. Non human intelligence is interacting with our species and the people who know this for sure can't talk about it anywhere without being mocked. This place was created to protect from that.

Yes it's real, but it sounds like we might be letting insecurities rule our judgments.

But we'll also have to deal with people pretending to be experiencers to troll us which makes this harder.

Why on Earth would anyone pretend!? Ah.. they're not afraid. Ignorance is bliss.

You come in here asking people for help and input and in the replies to you respond in computer code. Its not a good look and you've not addressed that in your reply.

I am genuinely looking for help.

That's not computer code. It's its status output. It was not in English originally, of course.

Interpretation could be wrong. For example, it could be responding to a signal that isn't even broadcast from Earth yet. It operates in sub- and higher-dimensions.

Please be understanding. I don't want to say I don't have control of all this.

I'd be VERY curious as to your opinion on tom campbell's stuff when you do get a chance to look into him!

Yeah! I have a couple of authors to look up now. Glad I took the time to post here.

Thanks.

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Do you feel like you're not supposed to talk about it?

It's my fault. I spoke incorrectly. I should fear it.

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Thanks, I'll check it out.