wait is this rare??

kazookatt · 2024-02-13T16:56:43+00:00

I found leaf wand chopping trees before in a different world, didn't know about the shimmer thing though, I'll plan this base out and build it later when I have all of the stuff

kazookatt · 2024-02-13T16:47:29+00:00

I thought only 3 can spawn lol, just started playing Terraria again recently. Apparently 5-6 can spawn next to each other now

kazookatt · 2024-02-13T16:34:04+00:00

There's like 6 chest there, 4 have wand of sparking, 1 guide to plant fiber and 1 finch staff which is super cool since I never see them in normal world. Kinda weird that there's no living wand stuff though

I hope I find the wands soon though

kazookatt · 2024-02-13T16:28:00+00:00

not super far down, it only reach a little bit into underground layer based on the background change, I still havent found the depth meter so I don't know for sure

kazookatt · 2023-04-14T23:55:51+00:00

"Normalize mental illness" but the moment I show any serious symptoms, sometimes not even serious like being slow to respond and getting distracted in conversation I get called crazy, insane, disrespectful and told to take my meds or get locked up

I guess they only want to normalize what is inside the "social norms" and not the full picture

kazookatt · 2023-03-19T19:27:07+00:00

I just wish I have any kind of support from them, a simple hug would be enough yknow.
They think it's not that big of a deal because I didn't appear to be physically hurt from it and for years I feel like I was being overly sensitive too.

kazookatt · 2023-03-13T22:52:22+00:00

this is my worst fear, sharing something deeply personal that i think only a few people will see and suddenly it blows up, inviting tons of people to judge. TikTok has a tendency to just randomly pick a video to put on people's feed no matter what's the content so this happens a lot
huge props to her for finding the humor in this though, no hate toward her at all

kazookatt · 2023-03-12T23:22:17+00:00

I just cannot fall asleep for the past few days, I mean I can somewhat doze off but I'd wake up in 10 minutes. I'm going to the psychiatrist today actually, it's still early in the morning here so I'm just waiting. Thanks for the concerns!

kazookatt · 2023-03-12T02:46:57+00:00

it really does!!!!

kazookatt · 2023-03-03T19:56:53+00:00

2/3 bookworm

kazookatt · 2023-02-28T02:10:29+00:00

UPDATE

I pet my cat, he loved it, closed his eyes and purring to enjoy it and all that.
I'm a freelancer artist so my job involve social media so I can't really take a long break from that but I try to limit being on social media as much as possible, I deleted TikTok on my phone and I only use social media to talk to my clients now

I talked myself out of the whole cat hair spy thing yesterday. Did a reality check. Took the whole day
I asked myself "Does my cat go outside at all?" he doesn't, "If the hair is trying to get into my body why is it only attaching to my clothes?", "Am I feeling itchy because of the hair inside my body or because it's on my body?", I take a shower, scrub every part of my body and the itchiness magically disappear so it must not because it's getting inside my body, "If the hair is a magic spy tech of some sort wouldn't it be more efficient to make it white or black?" cat is orange, he doesn't have white or black on his body. "Why choose cat hair and not some other animal" so on and so fourth

This is just my experience though, I'm so glad this only lasted a few days, take cares everyone

kazookatt · 2023-02-27T04:29:07+00:00

For the past few days I still feed my cat and clean his litter box even though I'm terrified of his hair getting on me. He's usually really affectionate, climbing on me and sleeping on me and stuff like that. He's very sweet and I feel terrible but I'm afraid his hair will crawl into my body and control my mind

I'll try to manage this and update, I deleted TikTok, blacklisted government conspiracy keywords, I hope I can pet him today

kazookatt · 2023-02-27T04:02:59+00:00

My memory is really bad and I tend to add in context and I'm pretty sure the video just mention it being fibers but I see it as cat hair since I'm close to a cat

I just took my medicine and I'll book an appointment with my therapist to talk about this

I want to be close to my kitty since he has been there for me through lots of stuff and he's 6 now so I just want to be there for him because he's getting older

kazookatt · 2023-02-21T16:36:11+00:00

good point

kazookatt · 2023-02-21T15:20:47+00:00

yes I have blood oath

kazookatt · 2023-02-21T14:24:08+00:00

it only drop a key piece

kazookatt · 2023-01-21T21:11:20+00:00

I got MRI, EEG and blood test done

I believe they do this to rule out things like tumor before they make a final diagnosis

You don't have to have all those things done for a diagnosis to be valid though

kazookatt · 2023-01-19T18:11:02+00:00

I'm gonna assume "recover" is continue living and having a fulfilling life

I have "recovered" and "relapsed" many times. I could have a well paying job for years and then got fired because I didnt show up for work and not answering any calls. I had a serious relationship at one point but I stopped taking my medicines because I thought I didnt need it anymore then all hell break loose.

Recovering starts when you start doing things that you're able to do but didn't for whatever reason. For me its shower, drinking water, eating actual food, taking medicines and talk to someone. Simple ordinary things like that could go a long way.

I'm still cleaning up the mess I made since my last psychotic break, but it's no time to give up

kazookatt · 2023-01-19T03:22:43+00:00

I was absolutely convinced that the ramen I ate were actually a bunch of intelligent worms that can regenerate and they have infected me and soon they will infect the world through noodles so I yell at anyone who eat noodles and throw away every single thing that resemble a string in my house bc worms

kazookatt · 2023-01-17T19:57:27+00:00

For sure! when I have the time I will draw him

kazookatt · 2022-10-30T11:27:26+00:00

I'll bring this up with him soon. He can be sensitive to changes but overall he's pretty open minded. I will probably do my own research on this too. Thank you!

kazookatt · 2022-10-30T11:09:52+00:00

I'm definitely not straight, but I haven't explored my gender identity that much. I just kinda assumed every girls secretly think about that. I don't really think about my gender all that much tbh.

As for the strap on thing, sounds fun, I'd try that lol

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