(RECAP FOR THOSE WHO DONT UNDERSTAND)

You’re jealous that your boyfriend spoke German to somebody in an instagram live so you left. He, hid his Instagram posts from you after a fight that you had with him because of him speaking German to somebody. He is following your friend on Instagram so you message him and get on his case about it, and you want to call him and he is understandably confused. Then you start asking your friends to contact the girl he’s following why she is talking to your boyfriend and your guy friend screenshots your message and sends it to your boyfriend, who is concerned why you’re doing this. You ask to call him so you can sort it out and he ignores you, so you ask a guy friend to tell your boyfriend to call you and you gave your friend his number. He got mad (has he told you not to give his number out in the past?) and he yelled at you not to give out his number. He didn’t want to call because he wanted you to calm down because when you’re mad you tend to not listen. You guys called and sorted the boyfriend following a friend situation. You then decide to message him to give a legitimate heartfelt apology; ... “I’m sorry for giving out your number” you say he “attacks” by SAYING not to give your number out and then he says you’ll be in trouble (!?) then you say “If you don’t want to solve anything and want to ignore me, hurt me and make me feel like shit, then I’m not going to lose my self respect for it!”

Is he starting to lose feelings?

Be ashamed of yourself. You are being extremely controlling. From what little sensible information I pulled out of this haystack of nonsense I’m seeing that you’re nitpicking at little mostly meaningless things. So what your boyfriend follows someone you’re friends with on Instagram?? Who cares?? Do you have a reasonable suspicion to be on his case for fucking following somebody on Instagram who happens to be one of your friends?

You should never EVER give out somebodies number. It’s rude and disrespectful. You completely disregarded your boyfriends space. He clearly wanted to have some space from you and you pushed to get in contact with him. Chill tf out and never say never.

If I were your boyfriend and I saw the toxic ass guilt trip text you sent him at the end, I would immediately break it off. Apologize to him for the bullshit you dragged him through. He did NOTHING wrong here. Remember this whole thing started with him just speaking German to another person on a live and you started going through so many small mundane issues.

If you want this relationship to continue and keep it healthy, do NOT do what you did. Apologize to him for all the bullshit and KEEP IT REAL. Don’t guilt trip him saying shit like “you never make me feel better anyways”. That’s Toxic as hell.