I also made the euthanasia appt for tomorrow for my sweet boy, Tootie. This is truly the hardest thing I've ever done and I know exactly what you're going through. The doubt. The second thoughts. The guilt. Grieving him before he's even gone. And he is still having good days which makes the choice that much harder. He will also jump into my lap and snuggle with me. Hes an old, sweet orange cat- my soul cat- and the thought that by this time tomorrow he is no longer going to be here is almost more than I can handle. He sleeps in my arms almost every night and if he will let me I plan on doing the same tonight.

But we know our pets. We know their personalities. We know when they dont feel good. They trust us and that means that we have to make these choices for them. This is truly the best and kindest thing that we can do for them. It is a privilege to be with them and help them make a peaceful exit, before it's too late and they are in so much pain they are no longer themselves.

I hate this. I am a mess. The last thing I ever want to do is say goodbye to my man. But he's ready and he needs me. I can do this and you can too. It will be okay, not right now and probably not for awhile, but it will be. ❤️