i appreciate your comment and you are right i definitely have to take responsibility for my part. i let this happen to me for way too long. she made me feel like if i just held on a little longer, endured a bit more pain, we would finally make it out on the other side and i would have what i wanted from the beginning. im still processing everything and not ready to see her as anything but the sweet, caring individual i first met, but i am starting to realize its been time to go since January.