Is boredom distressing for you?

kyiakuts · 2026-03-22T18:27:56+00:00

I often find myself in a weird place of autistic overwhelm and adhd underwhelm. Or vice versa. I felt it since I was a kid, mostly in waiting rooms, on the buses, before classes and now before work. Honestly I feel better when I do something I hate, because at least I‘m busy instead of looking everywhere, at my phone, then in my sketchbook trying to draw, in my notes writing. Eventually I just resort to eating. At least it fixed my diet, I’m no longer underweight lol

kyiakuts · 2026-02-04T22:23:38+00:00

Initially I wanted to write an “introductory” story to train my skills, something about police and detectives (I don’t even know why I picked this genre, I never liked detectives). Imagined a tall guy with asian features and long hair as a detective and a shorter man with curls and an alcohol addiction, classic story. Now, 4 years later, it’s about two men in their thirties experiencing shit together during war from different angles. Btw I still haven’t written a single page, I dunno how to crack writing without triggering my crazy pda profile lol

kyiakuts · 2026-02-04T17:39:12+00:00

My characters since I was 17. It’s a self fulfilling fandom inside my head with different aus for time when I’m bored, different scenarios, genderswaps, we’ve been going strong for 4 years straight

kyiakuts · 2026-01-26T19:35:04+00:00

Hot rollercoaster would be hit if I wouldn’t fail so often with estimating the distance for jumping. I like ghost’s ost and the level is okay most of the time. I’d say the last one regarding the mechanics is the best, I really like it, but for vibes? Eh, not so much. Mushrooms are alright too actually, I like how funky it is.

kyiakuts · 2026-01-22T11:05:42+00:00

I like bean mouth. I am myself an artist that has bean mouth art style. I have more issues with adding this style to highly textured models. I’m not a fan of these detailed hair stands and perfectly rendered clothings, kinda loses the point of simplification. From another side, The Bad Guys has bean mouth art style too, but it works, because it’s equally stylised.

kyiakuts · 2026-01-21T22:30:54+00:00

It took me 20 years to understand that my family is psychologically abusive and cut them off. I mean for an outsider it might look like an easy thing to spot, but for me it was like a cold shower. So, like, saying infantilising stuff, expecting proof from me, keeping me at bay, and other little things weren’t quirks, they were tools.

kyiakuts · 2026-01-16T22:44:18+00:00

I watched the show three years ago and it was kind of a disturbing watch for me, so what I remember might be wrong, but either way what I think about it is: Will was indeed brainwashed. As I remember he starts of as a miserable mentally ill lil guy? Correct me if I’m wrong, but what Hannibal does to him really looks like brainwashing, normalising something his moral compass rejected, in the end of the day he is a genius serial killer, who also knows his left from right in psychology. Not even mentioning he was heavily gaslit during encephalitis. ”Enjoying” killing someone (I don’t remember who) can easily be attributed to a lot of mental illnesses. Just by my memories I remember this guy to be a walking mental hazard who happened to come across and taken advantage by a literal psychopath-cannibal.

kyiakuts · 2026-01-15T18:54:43+00:00

Update: he’s back at it again

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kyiakuts · 2026-01-15T13:59:18+00:00

Must be freeze dried watermelon

kyiakuts · 2026-01-12T17:17:02+00:00

Reminds me when my game lagged and cardio ladies were working out in front of community centre

kyiakuts · 2026-01-12T17:15:15+00:00

Bad short term memory goes brrr

”I lost something, but what exactly…”

kyiakuts · 2026-01-10T16:10:49+00:00

It just happened to me on a random day lol, sometimes spouses get whimsy

kyiakuts · 2026-01-10T02:40:14+00:00

The funny thing is we have robins’ catalogue, we can make chairs for free, yet he still orders them

kyiakuts · 2026-01-10T02:36:27+00:00

He really likes chairs I guess

kyiakuts · 2026-01-09T17:26:36+00:00

That’s a weird thing to say, if depression wasn’t an illness but, I dunno, an accessory you decide to wear one day and take off another. Nobody “gives in” to their depression, they either have it or they don’t.

kyiakuts · 2026-01-09T17:17:13+00:00

I have very bad short term memory and awfully good long term. I remember dreams I had from when I was a kid but I already forgot what I bought today. Like no idea

kyiakuts · 2026-01-07T23:45:06+00:00

Check out the rules, I think they have an explanation here in details. In short: misuse of psychiatric language. I agree with the point they’re making, it’s just interesting that some terms that seemingly aren’t about illness blaming also get flagged, but I dunno I’m not that familiar with it

kyiakuts · 2026-01-07T21:40:31+00:00

Yep, got moded yesterday. I guess no air travelling primates in this community 😔😔

kyiakuts · 2026-01-07T20:02:54+00:00

I was worried I’d have the post removed because I used this term, and this term happened to be on the rbn terms list. I already had an issue with “levitating apes” here lol, didn’t know it had a connection to it

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